Love. Lust. Trigger Warning

Love. Lust. is gonna get real. No subject is safe, miscarriage, abortions, suicide, rape, child death, and murder all will be covered in this series. If any or all these subjects bother you then you may want to avoid this story. I felt that I should put an FYI out there but if you been reading my stories in the past then you would know that I’m no stranger to writing touchy subjects.

Happy Simming and Stay Safe!

Love. Lust. – Chapter 1: You’re The One

SWV – You’re The One

I am a man with big dreams and a big family. An up and coming EDM DJ and music producer, a husband with 11. You may be saying my wife and I had been busy however 3 of my 11 belong to her. I was a very busy man before my wife Lindy. I had 5 kids with 3 different women before meeting Lindy. Early in my DJ career I was careless and drank a lot. I slept with a lot of women and my brother felt it was time to shapen up and set me up with Lindy. She’s beautiful and all but when she got pregnant with triplets, Cergio suggested I marry her.

However, I stepped out on Lindy a few times and it’s how I got my twins Bora and Luna. I met their mom at one of gigs in Bridgeport. She was beautiful, sexy, and smart. I loved seeing her dance during my set. I learned she was a dancer but I didn’t discriminate. She was paying her way through medical school but then I ruined things. She got pregnant. I wasn’t sure how to tell Lindy but I had no choice after she gave birth and died afterward due to a blood clot. I had to take in the twins, it took time but Lindy forgave me.

We worked on our problems and was doing well until I received a “this is your son” text 9 months after Bora and Luna were born. I stepped out again but with a Pharmacist from Auberon. My son Mordecai was born to a lady name Alayna. Lindy was heartbroken but I swear there wasn’t any other women I’ve been with since. Alayna was the last one and I don’t remember much about her. It was a one night stand and apparently, I gave her my number. Lindy forgave me.

I’m receiving a call from the mother of my youngest child, a child Lindy doesn’t know about because I can’t bear t break her heart once again. Clarissa had my son Raiden who is almost a year old. I’ve been keeping this secret for so long now. Not even my kids know they have a new little brother. Although Charissa lives in Bridgewood, she books most of my gigs. She’s my agent and that’s how Raiden happen. Clarissa has promised she won’t tell Lindy about Raiden but I think she’s losing her patience.



“Hey Clar, what’s?”

“I have a gig for you but it’s Auberon.”

“Oh cool! When? Dets?”

“Well it’s next Friday and I know that’s your anniversary. However, I think this will be really good for you.”



“Yeah, yeah I’m down! Much pay am I getting paid tho?”

A grand but are you sure? Would Lindy be okay with it?”

“She’ll be fine. I’ll work something out.”

“Oh okay, I just don’t want to step on any toes.”

“You good Clar-Bear.”


“Borage, when do you plan on seeing Raiden?”

“Clar, I don’t know. I’ve been really busy though.”

“You haven’t seen him in almost a month. He misses his dad. You need to see him.”

“You know I can’t just jump in my car and drive to Bridgewood without giving Lindy a reason why. Just move here.”

“We talked about this B. You know I can’t afford to move to Bridgeport. Plus I have my dad here. He’s a big help with Raiden. It’s not I can just drop him off there when you still haven’t told Lindy about him.”

“I’m working on it.”

“It’s been over a year. He’s 10 months old now. How long are you gonna wait to tell her? When he’s 20? His siblings don’t even know about him, B.”

“I know and I’m sorry but I said I’m working on it. I’m gonna tell Lindy one day. Just bear with me.”

“I dunno but Raiden needs his father. I need to go. Talk to you later.”

“Okay. Bye Clar.”



I know Clarissa is right, I need to be in Raiden’s life more but breaking Lindy’s heart again isn’t an option right now. I listened to my children playing outside while I had a drink on the balcony with Clarissa’s words echoing in my mind. There was a time where I thought I could be with Clarissa.

We have a close friendship and we spend a lot of time together since she books my gigs and promotes my shows. I thought maybe she could be the one although my heart isn’t fully committed to Lindy. In a way, my marriage was an arrangement set up by my brother so I wouldn’t destroy my career with “loose women” as my brother described it.

Things changed when she got pregnant with Raiden. She didn’t want to be the other woman and I didn’t want to leave Lindy, so she ended things. Clarissa has moved on but sometimes I wished she didn’t. I still think about. The main reason why I haven’t seen Raiden is because it’s hard to be around her and not be with her.



“Daddy! Daddy! Come play with us!”

I hear Luna yelling from the front yard.


I shouted back after taking my last sip from my cup.



I peeked over the balcony to see Bora upset. It’s her first weekend without her best friend and cousin Desire, Cergio’s daughter. Cergio’s wife Kelly and Desire usually come over every weekend so the girls can play. However, Kelly has a habit of openly hitting on me in front of Lindy and they almost get into fights over it. I don’t know if Kelly does it to get under Lindy’s skin or she’s really attracted or it’s just both.

Lindy banned Kelly from the house because she has had enough. The kids don’t understand why but it’s really for the best. Plus I’m tired of Kelly cause she drinks all of my vodka then yells at me to go get more. We finally have a peaceful weekend for once.






“Daddy, why can’t Desire and Aunt Kelly come here anymore?”

“Because Aunt Kelly is well very friendly to your daddy.”

“Isn’t that a good thing?”

“Yes but she’s also mean to mommy.”



“Mommy is mean to Aunt Kelly too.”

“Okay but Aunt Kelly needs to spend time with Uncle Cergio.”

“When do I get to see Desire? Do I get to see her anymore?”

“You’ll see Desire again. You’ll be starting school with her and then you both get to play at recess.”

“But what about the weekends? I wanna see Aunt Kelly too. She’s funny when she drinks.”

“Well you only get to see her if we go to Uncle Cergio’s or your Grandparents.”





“You handled that well. She’s been asking questions about her cousin.”

“Thanks. I was gonna leave it to Lindy but she’s taking a nap.”

“I just love seeing you be a dad. It’s a turn on.”



“You turned on? Well is there something I can do for you?”


“The kids are playing and Lindy is down for a nap. I say it’s time for a weekend jam session.”

“Maybe you’re right.”




I love my jam sessions with the nanny, Florance. They are hot as fuck. I needed to clear my mind for a bit because I’ll need to tell Lindy about my next gig that falls on our 15th anniversary. Maybe I’ll take her with me. It’s not like I had planned anything for next Friday. I think it would be fun.



It may not look like it but things are deeper between Flo and me. She’s been our nanny since Bora and Luna were babies. Lindy never came to terms with raising Bora and Luna. She hired Flo when the twins were 6 weeks old. The twins see Flo more as their mom than Lindy although they call Lindy mommy. But I got close to Flo when Clarissa ended things with me. I needed someone and Flo were there for me. It’s not just sex with the hot nanny.



It’s love. I’m in love with her.





“What was that?”

“It’s nothing, Love. Come closer.”

“You know we can’t keep doing this. What if we get caught?”

“We won’t.”

“Can’t you just leave her?”

“Working on it. I love you.”

“I love you too.”


“Borage Lamar Montigo! I know what you did!”

“What are you talking about?”

“Don’t play dumb, chico!”



“You sneak! Serpiente! You didn’t think I was gonna find out about your secreto!”



“What are you talking about, Lindy. Spill.”

“I know about your curro! Your show! On our 15th aniversario! Seriously Borage?!”

“I’m sorry, babe.”

“Lo siento, imbécil!”

“Um okay.”


“Why would you do such a thing? What about our plans?”

“I thought maybe you could go. You haven’t been to any of my shows in ages.”

“Aye Dios mío! Seriously? There’s nothing romantic about going to your curro!”

“I’ll make it up to you.”




“Promesa, Papi?”


“You need to run these by me.”

“Clar said this would be a good gig.”

“Clar is not your wife. Clar doesn’t know what’s good for you. I know what’s good for you, Papi.”

“I don’t complain when your agent books your shows. Why do you always complain about mine?”

“I don’t do shows on anniversaries.”

“You complain about my other shows too.”

“Only because you do one every weekend and don’t spend time with me.”




“I spend time with you. You knew I had a busy career like you do too. I’m a DJ and you’re a singer, you should know how things are.”

“You spend a lot of time with Flo when you’re home.”

“You’re always on your phone Instagramming or Facebooking. And she’s like my best friend.”

“I’m your best friend, Papi.”


“Anyhoo, I think you should take Liam to the field and have him practice his soccer. He’ll never be a soccer star sitting in his room playing those video games.”




Our son Liam is far from being a soccer star. Lindy is hard on him only because she viewed Alayna’s Instagram and saw pics of Mordecai playing soccer in Auberon. Mordecai is a soccer star and Lindy is jealous. Liam is a chess genius but it’s not good enough for Lindy. She rather have him be athletic like me and Mordecai than a genius in chess. She came from a family of soccer player and Liam must carry the passion on. 



I love my son but he’s terrible.



“Okay but let’s try not to fall this time. Focus on the ball. Keep your eyes on it!”




“Ugh! Dad, why?! Why me? If you’re wanting an athletic son then focus on Morde. I hate this.”

“It’s what your mom wants!”

“What about what I want? Don’t I get a say?”




“Here we go!”





“That was awesome!”

“How was that awesome, dad? I missed it!”

“I’m cheering for me. That was awesome!”

“This isn’t fun! I wanna stop!”




“Why is mom so hung up on me playing soccer? Doesn’t she know I’m terrible at it.”

“Family thing.”

“I like to play chess, video games, and do math. Why can’t I just do those things?”

“It doesn’t bother me that you wanna be a full nerd. I have Bruce and Morde to play sports with. It’s just your mom is pushing this on me too.”

“Why do you stay with her? Obviously, you’re not fully committed to her.”

“What makes you say that?”

“I know about Flo. WE know about her.”


“Me, Lilah, and Leilani.”



“For how long?”

“Some months. It’s not fair to mom. It’s not fair to you either dad. I see how happy you are when you’re with Flo. You and mom fight all the time. We understand if you divorce but if that happens, please don’t make us live with her.”


“I don’t wanna play soccer. Lilah doesn’t want to wear dresses and take violin, Leilani doesn’t want to be in choir. She’s trying to make us be stars too but we just wanna be normal teens.”

“I thought Lilah liking playing the violin and Leilani enjoyed singing. Your mom just wants you all the be talented.”

“I have 2 left feet. There’s no way I can ever play soccer, dad. Can you talk to her?”

“I’ll try but she might not listen.”

“Please, dad.”





I’m the resident DJ at Dynasty. I love my job. I love playing music and making the crowd dance.




I feel the music is my soul. It’s such a fucking great release whenever I play.




I especially keep my eyes on any sexy lady I see dancing near my booth. Playing attention to every curve on her body as she twists around in joy and laughter. But tonight I saw an old face, a sweet face, a face I love to see.




“Well hello there. Isn’t it the infamous Nakia Love as I live and breathe.”

“Hello, Borage.”

“Damn you fine.”



“Thanks but you been ducking my calls. Why?”




“I’m sorry baby but all my calls been going to my agent, Clarissa but if you need my number, I’ll gladly give it to you and then some.”

“I’m married, Borage.”

“So am I but you always been the one for me, Nakia.”

“Save it. You haven’t changed much since high school.”

“You’re still as sexy as ever. Why hit me up though?”

“Your Bridgeport’s hottest EDM DJ and producer. My boss is on my ass about getting an interview with you.”




“An Interview? We can arrange that. We can go on a date like old times and you can interview me.”

“A date is not needed.”

“Remember those dates I use to take you on? So hot.”

“Yeah, and I got pregnant once. Thank goodness for the miscarriage or I wouldn’t have the career I have today.”

“I wonder if our baby had lived.”

“You wouldn’t be BP’s hottest DJ today.”

“So about that date?”


“Fine but no funny stuff. I am a married woman with 2 kids and have a successful journalism career. We dated back in high school and that was the past.”

“I can’t make any promises.”

“Promise me, Borage.”

“Okay, okay. I promise. Next Friday in Auberon I have a show, we can have it after that.”


Soundtrack: Chapter 1 – I’m A Believer

Track 1: Eric Wikman Ft Donna Washington – I’m A Believer


My name is Lanai Montigo and I live in Bridgeport, CT. I’m 15 years old and starting my sophomore year at the Applegate Academy. I’m the last born in a set of triplets, Liam and Lila. There’s nothing special about me. I’m just some rich girl at my school. I have more money than the average person so you’ll think I’m happy and spoiled just like any other rich girl. But that’s far from the truth. Money can’t buy everything.



Yeah, I live in a big fancy house in the suburbs just outside of Bridgeport. What do you expect when both of your parents are famous music artists. My dad, a DJ, singer, and producer. My mom, a singer since she was my age. My parents are well known and of course, the public knows who about my siblings and me since we were born. We were just days old when we showed up on the cover of a popular magazine. We grew up in the limelight but now as teens, we are slowly fading away from the public’s eye. There’s nothing really special about us and my our doesn’t post pics of us on her Instagram as much as she did when we were kids.



“You’re not extraordinary. Just a rich girl, plain and boring.” Those words from my mom echoed in my head. She’s displeased cause there’s nothing special about me. No talent, nothing unique, not even a birthmark. Just ordinary.

With the first day of school coming up and I felt like I need to stand out. Liam is a star student, a chess champ, math whiz, gaming champ, and my mom is proud of it. Lila may act odd or dress strangely but even she has special. Lila is a well known Youtuber with thousands of subscribers. She live steams her gaming with funny content, goes on wild adventures, and does make up tutorials.  And I play the guitar poorly.

Money can’t buy me talent or a personality. It does buy me friends. I would give anything to be something cool like my siblings.



“Ugh! I’m so boring! I have a pretty face but boring. I need something cool. Hmm. Maybe Lila can give me a makeover and she can Youtube it. I bet that would be cool. I can’t go another school year being boring. Maybe a hair?”



“Whatcha think, Dakota? Should I get a haircut or something?”


“Maybe a new hairstyle then. I dunno if I’ll look right with a haircut. I need something, girl.”

“Arf! Arf!”


I went to Lila’s room hoping she could help me. She was busy at her computer but I felt I should bother her anyway.

“Hey sis, maybe you can give me a little makeover and you can record it for your channel?”


“Give me a makeover. Please?”

“I would but I’m busy editing a video. I got a schedule ya know.”



“So that’s a no? Really? Tomorrow is the first day of school. I could really use one.”

“I tried once before but you ran away.”

“You wanted to give me a mohawk!”

“It would have been cool.”

“No! You can do my hair but no mohawks, Lila! I’m serious.”

“I wish I could Nay-Nay but I got so much to do. Maybe ask Flo?”



I headed to Flo’s room, she’s our live-in nanny and housekeeper. I wasn’t shocked by the actions between my dad and Flo. This has been going on for years but we pretend to be clueless about it.

“Borage, no. I gotta pick up my room.”

“C’mon, you can do that later.”

“But I can’t. Your wife is home.”

“She’s busy.”



When they think they are alone, they aren’t. Usually, I or my siblings would see our dad fooling around with Flo. I just wish they would hide their affair better than this. What teen wants to see their dad have sex with another woman when he’s married to my mom. This situation is crazy.




“Just a little quickie. I miss you.”

“I miss you too but it’s not right when your wife is home.”

“When is it ever right?”




“It’s never right, Dad.”

I hid behind the car as my dad left the garage. I waited for Flo to return to her room before speaking to her. Why am I not mad at them? Cause my parents’ marriage was an arrangement done by my uncle Cergio. My mom loved my dad but my dad never loved her. My dad fooled around a lot. I don’t like it but that’s how things are. I like Flo, she’s like a mother to us. Honestly, she has been more of a mother to us than my mom has. Mom is busy a lot with recording, tours, and shows.



“Flo can you help me with something?”

“Sure, like what?”

“A makeover. I’m boring and I wanna stand out tomorrow at school. I don’t want to be my plain Jane self again like I was last year.”



“Lanai sweetie, you’re not boring or plain Jane. You’re very beautiful and talented. I heard you play the guitar and you’re sounding better each time you play. There’s no need to stand out. You’re perfect as you are.”



“You really think so? I think I suck at playing the guitar. It’s not like I’ll be a rockstar like my parents but I guess I’ll keep trying.”



“Maybe I can find a teacher for you. How would you like that?”

“Oh cool! I’ll like that a lot if you think I can play.”

“You know you can play. You need some confidence. Just believe in yourself and you’ll find that you can do many other things.”



Feeling good about myself, I headed up to the park near with my siblings Liam, Lila, Luna, and Bora. It was a nice evening out and our last day of summer vacation.




“A game of chess?”

“So I can lose?”

“That would be the point.”

“Ha! I think I can beat you this time.”

“You think so?”



“I’m a believer.”

“You’re on.”

“I caught dad and Flo again.”

“Where at this time?”




“I wouldn’t do that.”

“Shut up! Don’t help me, Liam.”

“Mom was home?”

“Either Dad is getting bolder or doesn’t care anymore.”

“He’s really not careful.”




“You think Mom knows?”

“Of course Mom knows. She’s not dumb or anything. Mom just doesn’t care.”

“How do you know this, Lila?”

“Trust me, Mom knows.”

“She’s right. They didn’t get married for love, it was a contract.”



“Move that piece.”

“Don’t help her!”

“Thanks, sis.”

“Anyway, Mom knows Dad cheats. We know the truth about Luna and Bora. Our parents never hired a surrogate mother to have the twins. Dad had a girlfriend who was the mother and she was killed in a car accident. Cergio was the one who made the cover story.”

“You really believe it was an “accident”?”

“Don’t start with the conspiracies, Lila. Total accident!”

“I believe Uncle Cergio was behind it.”

“Lila, our uncle is not a murderer. Stop it.”

“You never know, Brother.” 


Lila and I sat down on the deck while Liam played with Luna and Bora. My leg hung down above the pond and trill my leg in a circle as I watched my reflection.

“Still want that makeover?”

“Nah, I think I’ll be fine. I talked to Flo and she gave me some much needed confidence.”

“You sure? You can make a bold statement with a mohawk.”

“Mom would freak.”




“So you’re gonna be okay?”

“Yeah, I was just a little dramatic.”




“Cool. I think Uncle Cergio is behind that missing woman mystery. I bet he knows where Shila Shlio is.”

“Lila, stop it! Ha ha ha.”

“I’m serious! Why does he have a lake house in Auberon that he won’t let anyone go see. That woman is there.”

“You and your conspiracies about Cergio. Ha ha ha!”