Show Yourself: Season One Refresher

In season 1, Raiden starts out being mostly singled out by outside peers after incident during a slumber party when he was much younger. The party fell on the night of a full moon and Raiden transformed into man-wolf causing fear among the other kids. He was later labeled as a freak and a monster, he had no friends.

Raiden overheard his parents talking about something important and later found out his mother, Nakia isn’t his biological mother. Nakia turns out to be his adoptive mother and his biological mother beat the odds and woke from her coma. Nakia assure Raiden that nothing will change and she will remain his mother.



After learning the truth about his mother, Raiden meet a girl name Noelle Sheridan who just moved in next door. Her family was from Bridgeport and she has a fascination with the occult, especially genies since she never met one before. However their meeting didn’t go so great at first due to Raiden’s temperament because he took Noelle’s innocent compliment of his different colored eyes as an insult. When Noelle asks Raiden what is his name, he tells her it’s Raiden but his family calls him “Rai”. Noelle jokingly gave him the nickname “Sunshine” playing on the word “ray/Rai” saying “I see! You’re a ray of sunshine! You’re really grumpy. I think I’ll call you Sunshine.” The nickname stuck. Noelle’s friendly personality overlooked Raiden’s grumpiness and quickly befriended Raiden; making her Raiden’s first friend.



Raiden’s friendship with Noelle was going well without a hitch but their friendship would be put through a test during the night of a full moon. Raiden learns how Noelle likes astronomy and especially love watching the full moon. She invites Raiden to stay for dinner but he declines and his moods turns sours as he got closer to sundown. Raiden tries to return home before the sunsets but Noelle isn’t making it easy for me which makes him snap at her. Noelle lets him go home and Raiden makes it home in the neck of time.

He starts his transformation once he enters the backyard. Once it’s done, he heads into the treehouse. However he later founds out he’s not alone and Noelle is in the backyard, telling him to come down. He tells Noelle to go away but she refuses. Raiden is afraid if she sees what he is she’ll run away. Noelle makes a treat if he doesn’t come down, then she’s come up. Raiden comes down and to his surprise, Noelle doesn’t reject him. She only wished that he told her the truth of what he really is. Noelle promises she won’t tell anyone about his secret.



Raiden travels to his birth town Evansdale County with his father and his siblings to meet their birth mother, Clarissa. As things seem to go well, Clarissa bluntly rejects Raiden in front of everyone, as she didn’t see him as one as her children. Borage needed to speak with Clarissa privately and asked the kids to go play in the play area however Raiden was curious what Borage wanted to talk about with Clarissa. Clarissa demanded they should be a family and he should leave his wife. Clarissa also believe Nakia brainwashed Borage into thinking he loved Nakia when he actually loved her. Borage began furious as there was no way of getting through Clarissa and left to join the kids in th play area. Raiden entered Clarissa only to be rejected once again and be called a demon and he’s the reason why everything went wrong.

Later on Clarissa shown up at the hotel where Raiden and his family had been stay. Clarissa attempted to kidnapped Giana. Raiden ran to his sister’s aid but was attacked by Clarissa before Borage and Alexia shown up. Clarissa begged and pleaded in front of their hotel room for some time. Raiden saw Borage call someone on his phone but it was never clear if he called the police or someone to come get her.



When Raiden and his siblings learned the truth about their mother, they also learned they had 3 other siblings. However those 3 siblings 3 shortly after birth, with one named Jada. During their trip to EC, they got to visit the graveyard of their 3 siblings and Jada appeared before Raiden’s eyes. However only Raiden can Jada because they have a special connection. Jada explains since he visit her grave, she was allowed to exit the light realm, a realm where all the spirits of children without parents go to. Jada also explains they are both part Snow-Caps lycans.

Jada already knows things about Raiden and also was given the gift of great knowledge while in the light realm. She now acts as a guide to Raiden. Although dying as an infant, she will always appear the same age as Raiden. Jada appears to Raiden when he needs his attitude adjusted and she is his voice of reason. Jada does take joy in mocking Raiden time to time, to remind him she’s just a kid too.



Raiden celebrated his 7th birthday in the neighboring city, Richdale where his adoptive maternal grandparents reside. During the first part of the day, he time at the park with Noelle and her parents. Weeks earlier Noelle wanted Raiden to her boyfriend however he has rejected her in the past. While playing, Noelle asked Raiden to be her boyfriend and Raiden accepted. With this being Noelle’s first time at this park, Raiden wanted to show her something unique. He knew a special kind of butterfly can be found toward the back of the park. However Noelle thought they might be too far away from her parents. Noelle couldn’t believe what she saw and thought they were beautiful. They sat in the grass and watched the mysteriously butterflies flutter around. Now being an official couple Raiden wasn’t sure what to do and thought maybe it was time to kiss. However Noelle rejected him, telling him it had to special like in the movies. Raiden was confused.

During his birthday party at the bowling alley, things were going well until Clarissa shown up causing a since. Both Noelle and Raiden witness Clarissa lashing out Nakia and Borage. Clarissa accuse Nakia for stealing her family and calling her a whore. Raiden was told to go inside with Noelle. It was obvious that Noelle was distraught from incident. She hugged Raiden calling him to best boyfriend ever because she felt he saved her. They had their first kiss.





Raiden learns where babies come from where his adoptive sister Nicole comes into town shockingly heavily pregnant. And to make the situation even more shocking, her husband Devin is Raiden’s half brother; which makes Nicole and Devin step siblings. Nicole explains to her Nakia that her and Devin had been secretly dating since high school, long before Nakia and Borage were together. Nakia didn’t take the news well at first because she wished that Nicole didn’t hide big things like a marriage and a pregnancy from her.

Raiden attempts to bonds with Nicole and is happy to know he will get to see more of Nicole and Devin because they will be living in Richdale once their house is done but will be staying in Riverview until then. Raiden had some confusion of the status of Nicole’s triplets if they were gonna be her siblings since her and Devin are step siblings. Nicole laughed and told Raiden they are simply her kids.

The following day, they all visited the autumn festival until Nicole went into labor, it was short and Nakia quickly deliver not 3 but 4 of her first set of grandchildren named, Avery, Ebony, Ivory and Evelyn. Raiden witness the birth of the quads but it left him with the question of how do babies get inside of the woman. A question which Borage decided to hold off on answering until due time.



Season one ends with Raiden spending the summer along with his siblings in Canosa, Italy with their maternal grandmother Antonia. Clarissa has also returned to Italy and has supervised visitation and for the most part things had been going well. Unknowingly to the kids, Clarissa poisoned her mother’s cup, causing her to pass out. Clarissa requested her younger brother to go to the park next door but to only go with his twin, Giana, Clarice, and Montell.

The kids left, leaving Raiden and Antonio behind. Tyrese shows up and Clarissa berates Antonio for dressing up like a girl. Raiden attempts to come to Antonio’s aid but is stopped by Tyrese. Clarissa forces Antonio inside of house and Raiden can hear Antonio cry and scream. Raiden thinks Clarissa may be whipping him. As Raiden attempts to save his brother, Tyrese challenges Raiden but not before telling him how his pack master requested to Raiden for unknown reasons. However Tyrese mentions Raiden is worth a lot money in the black market and he has plans to sell. He tells Raiden how he was his ticket to Switzerland. Raiden wasn’t willing to go with Tyrese decided to put up a fight. Tyrese figure he would beat Raiden into submission but was unaware of Raiden’s medical condition. Tyrese savagely beaten Raiden until he was unconscious. Clarissa ran outside and saw what Tyrese had done. She knew they would be in here. They picked a scent of a familiar lycan near by and panic. They both left, leaving Raiden on the ground.

Raiden’s lycan maternal  grandfather, Muraco found Raiden on the ground and picked him. Later Raiden could be seen laying in the hospital in a coma with Borage and Muraco by his side. Muraco reports to Borage that Clarissa has been caught but no sign of Tyrese yet.

Raiden is seen laying on the ground in a mysteriously world and is awaken by Jada. He is pressured by Jada that he needs to returns but Raiden thinks he’s better off dead. Jada reminds him that he family who cares about and his friend Noelle would be hurt if he dies. Jada tells Raiden that he’s running out of time and they rush towards a well.


Show Yourself: Chapter 10 – Risveglio *Season 1 Finale*

After the school year ended, we were promised a trip to Italy. My parents felt it was best to get in touch with our Italian roots and to spend more time with our Italian grandparents. The timing was perfect, I had a summer assignment to write a paper about Italy. With me visiting the country over the summer, I knew I would get an A.

Of course I was bummed out that I would be spending the summer without Noelle. Even if I stayed in town, we would still spend the summer apart. Noelle was going to a summer ballet camp, she was pretty excited about it. My brother Antonio was hoping to go to the same camp but was disappointed when he remember the Italy trip. However Antonio was surprised when he learns our grandmother Antonia enrolled Antonio, Giana and Clarice into summer ballet classes.

Italy is known for its superb fine arts and they knew they would learn from the best. Montell and I were enrolled into summer art classes. I was excited about that since I loved to draw and paint. Montell was more into sports than anything else but only looked forwarded to meeting cute girls in the art class.




My parents worked out a deal with our Italian grandparents. We were to only stay with our grandmother Antonia or our grandfather Muraco but never with Clarissa. She was diagnosed with schizophrenia and can only have supervised visits with us. Clarissa couldn’t be left alone with us, especially with me. This was the only arrangement she could have if she wanted to remain in our lives. It wasn’t one that she wanted but it was better than nothing at all.

We stayed with Grandma Antonia since our Grandpa Muraco often worked and his home was smaller. Grandma Antonia was a housewife and sold her produce for income while her much younger husband Josh worked full time. She sold both of her restaurants so she could stay home with her late-in-life set of twins, Corrado and Camilla.




Corrado and Camilla were 3 weeks younger than us but it was kinda cool to have an uncle and aunt that was the same age. They couldn’t boss us around or anything, besides we were a bit older than them. Naturally we got along with each other and always had fun playing with them. They knew what will happen to be during a full moon and didn’t think that I was a freak monster. Corrado told me if he was like me, then everyone would be his friend because everyone would be too scared to be mean to him. I told Corrado that a lot of kids were mean to me because of what I am.

“When they say something mean to you, tell them when you turn, you’ll come and eat them. They’ll be nice.” Corrado had said to me. I never thought about threatening my bullies. Maybe I should try.




During the summer, we often with fishing with Grandpa Muraco. He also had a son that was close to our age but he was spending the summer in France with his mother. Our step-grandma is a chef and was on a cooking tour through out Europe and felt that would be a great experience for our uncle. We haven’t gotten a chance to meet him yet but Grandpa Muraco said we would get a chance before we leave for home.




Grandpa was fun to be around he taught us cool thing but he was also mysterious. He once faked his own death for many years cause he thought it would protect his family. However it did more harm than good. When Clarissa was just a toddler, he fought with his rival and let him believe that he was dead. He watched over Clarissa mostly in wolf form, grandpa is a special breed and can turn against the moon unlike most lycan. Naturally his rival Tyrese Argento would let his guard down if he believes my grandpa wasn’t around.

Unfortunately my grandpa’s hiding spot was found and he was forced to flee the country. This prevented him to take down Tyrese once and for all. He sent his friend Simona to look after Clarissa. Unfortunately Tyrese wormed in and marked Clarissa as his life mate, nothing could be done at this point. My grandpa continued to hide in France until Clarissa’s accident in EC.

I  still wondered how my grandpa hid for all of that time before revealing that he’s still alive 8 years ago. He lives peacefully in the Monte Vista area with his wife Simona and their son. His story of faking his death to protect Clarissa doesn’t seem right the more I think about it. As a child, it made sense but I know my grandpa is not telling us everything. What could he be hiding?




“I’ve been told that you don’t want to be a lycan. Is this true?”

“Yeah. It turns me into a monster and I hate it.”

“You should be proud to have lycan blood.”

“Why? It’s not like I can turn into a wolf. And if I didn’t have lycan blood then I could be a real genie like my parents and my girlfriend Noelle likes genies. Being a genie is much cooler.”

“Raiden, if you spend the summer training with me; you could turn into a full wolf. It will take a lot of time and training. If you train to be a lycan, I’m sure your genie powers will unlock too. You don’t always have to be like this.”





“I don’t wanna. I just want to be a genie. I heard being a lycan is just a curse maybe if the curse was broken then I could be a real genie.”

“Well yes, you are right about the curse thing however you were born with it. Something that you were born with can’t be undone. You are what you are and you just can’t pick one and go with it. Accepting what you are will help with your training.”

“Will training be hard?”

“It will be at first, but after you get a hang of things, it will get easier. We can start out with the small stuff. With your health condition, we have to tread light.”




“Like what?”

“Well I can teach you to pick up scents and listen from a far distance. With Lycan blood, you have a heighten sense of smell and sound. From here I can hear your sisters talking about their crushes at school.”

“Really? I guess it would be cool to listen to people from far away. I could hear what my mom and dad got me for Christmas!”

“Ha ha ha! No Raiden. You gotta use these senses for good, not evil. This will help you sense danger before it happens.”




I never looked forwarded whenever Clarissa came over for her daily visit. Although she seems more stable than what she was a year ago, I can still sense the hatred that she has towards me. When she comes over, she greets everyone warmly but greets me with a coldness. I usually stay out of her way during the time she’s here. I tuned her out and stay in my own little.




Grandma and Clarissa usually have their afternoon tea time around 2 PM. Usually Grandma makes the tea but Clarissa was more than happy to make the tea this time around. Clarissa was in an unusual great mood today, naturally I grew suspicious. Something didn’t seem right about her on this day.




“You seemed very happy today, Clar. It’s always wonderful to see you in a good mood.”

“Sì Mamma. After you received they news that I got today, you would be in a great mood today too.”

“And what news would that be, Clar?”

“I’m pregnant. Tyrese and I will have a baby.”

“You are with Tyrese? Clarissa, no. After all that he has done to you.”

“It’s okay Mamma. He doesn’t hurt me anymore. And I have to be with him. Lycan law. I am his life mate, we are still married. He forgives me for trying to kill him. We are better Mamma. He changed.”

“A man like that will never change. If you need help getting away from him, you can come stay with me. I will have to talk to Borage and Nakia first-“

“Never you mind him and his whore! You don’t have to speak with them about nothing! Those our my children!”

“Clarissa! I thought you were good with Borage and Nakia now? You made so much good progress.”

“I only play nice so I can see what belongs to me. I don’t care much for him or his whore. I am happy with Tyrese and we are gonna have a family. I like to see him and his whore try to take my baby!”




“Clarissa, they won’t be taking your baby. But speaking of your baby, have you talked to your doctor about your meds?”

“No. I don’t need to. Tyrese said those pills were stopping me from having a baby and he was right. I stop taking my meds and now we have a baby on the way! Are you happy for me?”

“You stop taking your meds?!”

“Yes, how else am I going to have a baby?”

“Cla-Clar; I feel so tired. Gra-grab my call. I gotta call Josh.”

“You should sit down, Mamma. You don’t look so well.”

“Ca-call Jo-Josh. Some-someone has to be here.”








“Mamma? Mamma? Are you okay?”





“I guess I can make a call for you, Mamma.”





“It’s done, baby. Come over.”





“Hey little brother, why don’t you, Monty and the girls all go to the park?”

“But Mamma doesn’t let us go to the park alone.”

“It’s okay Corrado. Mamma said it was okay. She’s taking a nap and said you guys could. Besides it’s just next door.”

“Okay but what about Raiden and Tony?”

“Mamma wanted them to stay. You should go now. I think the gelato lady is there today.”





I thought it was strange when I saw everyone but Antonio and I go to the park without grandma. Soon I looked up to see a male lycan approaching Antonio and Clarissa in the background. I heard Clarissa call him Tyrese, this had to be grandpa’s rival. He had a coldness about him, he had scars  across his left eye from when Clarissa attempted to kill years before. He smirked as his eyes gazed upon me, I felt a cold shiver go up my spine. I knew there was something sinister about to happen on this sunny afternoon.




Antonio also sense something wasn’t right and attempted to run pass Clarissa.

“Where do you think you’re going, you little faggot?! See Tyrese? This right here needs to be fixed. I can’t believe that whore lets this boy walk around in girl clothes and they said she’s a better mother than me? I wouldn’t dare like my son dress like some fag!”

“Please let me go!”

“Not until I fix you! No son of mine will be a twink!”




“But I like to dress like this. It makes me feel pretty.”

“You are a boy and you will dress like a boy! Is that braided pigtails too?! That’s it! You are coming with me, faggot. I’m gonna make you act and look like a boy for now on!”

“You can’t do that!”

“Watch me!”



I ran towards them, shouting at them to leave Antonio alone. My demands fell onto deaf ears. Clarissa grabbed Antonio and dragged him into the house. I could heard him wailing as Clarissa smacked him around and shouting at him. I attempted to run after him but was stopped by Tyrese.




“I don’t think so, little shit. You stay right here. When she’s done with him, we will deal with you too.”

“Stop hurting my brother!”

“She’s not hurting your fag brother. She’s fixing him and he’s being such a little bitch about it. I think it’s pointless and a waste of time. My only interest is you. You’re a rarity. I’m sure you’ll be worth a lot.”




“What are you talking about?!”

“You’re both lycan and genie. I’ve never seen anything like that. My pack master is requesting you however I got other plans in mind.”


“I could earn a fortune off of you in the black market. My pack master is too stupid to see the money you are worth. With the money I will get, I can leave patch and this country for somewhere better. Switzerland is calling my name and you are my ticket there.” 




“I won’t let you take me!”

“Child, please. You think you could take me? You are untrained. I wouldn’t have to lift a finger to put you down.”




I growled and snarled at Tyrese, holding my ground. I wasn’t going to let him take me without fight. The sounds of Antonio’s continuous wailing in the house motivated me more to take on Tyrese. My heart began to race and I could feel my  genie essence converting to lycan blood just like when there’s a full moon. If I could turn into my monstrous form then I would stand a chance against Tyrese.





“I admire your blind ambition but that will be your down fall, boy.”

“I will end you!”




“Show me what you got, boy!”




With all of my might, I charged towards Tyrese at full force. He kicked me in my chest, sending me across the yard. I fell into the ground slightly dazed but more determined. Again I charged towards with full speed, taking him by surprise. He didn’t think I would pick myself up from the blow to the chest. He foolishly turned away from me and I was able to chomp down onto his leg with my fangs. He kicked me away before he violently stomped me until I was unconscious. 




“Tyrese! What did you do?!”

“The mutt bit me!”

“He said to not hurt him. The brat has a health condition. He’s probably dead!”

“He’s still breathing. The little shit isn’t dead.”

“Now what are we going to do? We can’t return without him.”




“We got no choice. We gotta go now!”

“Oh shit!”








“Raiden; what did they do to you?”










One Week Later

“Raiden, it’s your dad. Please son, wake up.”





“Borage. Any change?”

“No. Did you find them?”

“Clarissa was caught, she attempted to board a flight to Geneva.”

“And the piece of shit who did this to my son?”

“Nothing. I am convinced he may be heading to Geneva or alright there. He can’t return to his pack. He’s unlikely to stay in Italy.”

“When you find him, kill him.”




“Are you sure?”

“Of course I am! I thought you would have no problem with that. After all he’s done to your daughter, raped her, beaten her and brainwashed her. You see what’s he’s capable of doing.”

“As much as I want him dead, I can’t do so. Lycan law, even when he’s been adjourned by his pack, they can still hunt me down. This will have to be handled by the law.”

“The law; right. They won’t be able to catch up to him. But we can handle this a different way.”

“How so?”

“I have a brother, Cergio. He has special abilities and he’s been training me. He can help us. We can handle this.”

“Call him.”




“Don’t worry son. Your pops and I will get him.”









“Raiden Enrique.” 




“Raiden, please. I know you can hear me. You gotta get up.”






“Ouch! Why does my head hurt?!”

“You got hurt badly, Raiden.”

“Where am I? Am I dead?”





“Almost? What do you mean?”

“You’re lying in a hospital right now, in a coma. Things aren’t looking good.”

“I’m dying? I thought I couldn’t die!”

“Your heart is lycan and that part of you can die. Your essence alone can’t save you.”




“What if I just die instead. Our birth mother hates me and other people hate me. Clarissa was planning on taking me to her pack master. My life kinda sucks. I’m freak. I have no friends. And I’m always sick. You’re lucky that you’re dead.”

“Being dead isn’t so great. I wish I could be alive and do all the fun things that you do. You got family that loves you and what about Noelle? She would be heart broken if you died. Lots of people would be too. Trust me, Raiden. Things are gonna get better for you.”

“You think so?”

“I know so. You gotta fight. Get strong. You got so much to live for. But can you do me a favor?”

“Like what?”

“Wake up. Our family needs you.”




“What was that?”

“Raiden! You don’t have much time. If you don’t wake up, then you’ll be trapped here forever.”

“What do I do?”

“Wake up!”




“To the well, follow me! You don’t have much time!”

Show Yourself: Chapter 9 – Without Notice

The summer had ended and the school year was in full swing. Halloween was around the corner and like any other kid, I was eager for sugar fueled holiday. It was the one time I could blend in with other kids while hiding behind a mask. The only time I felt normal. 

I did look forward for school to start back in September. I was hoping Noelle and I would be in the same class, but sadly we weren’t. However Noelle’s class was next to mine and we had the same recess. We saw each often, but jealousy would soon reveal its ugly head. I didn’t like it when Noelle talked to other boys, let alone any other kid. Noelle is very friendly and lots of other kids wanted to be her friend. I made a few scenes and soon regret it when other kids reminded me how I was a freak monster. It wasn’t long before Jada would appear to wave her finger at me. I gotten better and didn’t mind so much if other kids wanted to play with Noelle. I had Montell at least, the school put us in the same class.




Mom always picked up us from school. Even though we lived close to the school, mom still wouldn’t let us walk home. Last year when I was in the first grade, a little boy was taken on his way to school. Since then, Janaya walk with us to school and mom picks us up from school. As soon as we get home, mom checks everyone’s book bag to see if any of us attempted to hide any homework. We always had to do our homework first before we could play or do anything. Mom made education first, she successfully sent her 2 oldest children off to college and both earning degrees. Nicole went into journalism like mom and Jaslyn went into medical like papa. Mom was going to make sure all of us follow their example.

“How is knowing all of the continents and oceans gonna be useful when I grow up? I’m gonna be a famous dancer and singer!”

“Don’t famous dancers and singers travel, Tony? You gotta know where you’re going.”

“Yeah? Won’t my agent have to worry about that? I don’t need to know this, Rai!”

“Dude just shut up and do it. You guys got baby second grad work. Third grade homework is harder, you jerks! I hate fractions!”

The doorbell rang , we all stopped and turned our heads towards the door.


Stella shouts at the top of her lungs.

“You don’t have to yell! Mom isn’t out in her garden, she’s in the kitchen.”

Scoffed Antonio with annoyance in his tone.

“I got it, sweetie.”

Mom said as she sets down the dish towel on the corner.

“Any of you expecting anyone?”

Mom asked as she stepped out of the kitchen and  into the dining room. We all looked at each other and shrugged.

Maybe it’s Raiden’s girlfriend Noooooelleeeee.”

Stella teased. Mom laughed while I stick out my tongue at Stella, she returned a favor.

“Play nice.”

Mom said as she ruffle my hair playfully with her hand.



We heard a familiar voice that we haven’t heard in a long while coming from the foyer. It was Nicole, mom’s first born.

“Just hear me out first, mom. Please don’t make this a big deal but I really need your help.”





“That better be a pillow under your shirt, Nicole Lynn!”

Mom probably had a heart attack when her eyes focused on Nicole’s heavily pregnant frame. We haven’t seen Nicole since last Christmas. She didn’t appear to have a boyfriend or anything and it seemed like her pregnancy was almost over with.

“Mom, please don’t freak out. Let me explain.”




“What happen?! I thought things were going well for you in Storybrook! And you come back here like this? When did this happen? When were you going to tell me?! You always tell me everything, Nicole Lynn!”

“I was gonna but-“

“Who is the dad? Is he even around?! I thought I taught you better than this? Coming home unwed and pregnant and asking for help?! I cannot believe you! You were so responsible! You were supposed to be! Your father and I tried so hard to make sure that you and your sister was heading in the right direction and you come back like this!”

“Mom! Let me explain!”

“Well I am waiting!”



“Things in Storybrook didn’t pan out like we hoped. The radio station got shut down and then this happen. We felt it was best if we came back home. We missed home. I didn’t tell you about my pregnancy cause I knew you was gonna flip but I think you will flip out more on who’s the father. Mom. I’ve been keeping a secret from you since I was 16. The father; you know him. It’s Devin. These babies are Devin’s.”




“Devin?! As in your step brother Devin?!”

“Yes mom. But to be fair, we were together long before you married Borage. We wanted to tell you about us but after you married Borage, we weren’t sure how to explain things.”

“You weren’t suppose to be dating at 16! I said no boyfriends until you finished school. I shoulda known! You and him were always together! I just thought you both were close friends. Why didn’t I put 2 and 2 together. So where is Devin? Why isn’t he here? You, his mom, him, your step dad and I are gonna have a talk about what we are going to do about this.”

“Do about this? Like break up? No mom. You can’t! Devin and I are married.”

“Married?! Are you kidding?! You didn’t tell me! Did your father know? Does Feather know? You are my first born and you didn’t tell me you were married let alone pregnant. Nicole Lynn! How could you not tell me this!”

“Cause I knew you were gonna get pissed off!”



“Nicole, I’m more hurt than mad. Ever since the day you were born, I dreamed about sending you off to your first day at school, helping you get ready for prom, attending your wedding and help picking out names for your baby. But I was robbed from that and I know sometimes I can over react. But if you and Devin came to us before all of this, Borage and I would give you both our blessing. I adore Devin and I’m glad you with him instead of some stranger that I don’t know. I just wished that you came to me. I thought we were close.”

“We are mom but never take news like this well. Plus you’re always on me about becoming something and telling you that I’m jobless, homeless and pregnant wouldn’t be easy. Devin and I need your help. Everyone’s help really.”

“You are my baby, of course I will help you. But this is a serious thing that you kept from me.”

“I know mom and I’m sorry; we’re sorry. Devin and I knew we couldn’t keep everyone in the dark too long. I decided that we should come back home. We got a place in Richdale, dad found us a place but it isn’t move in ready. Not until next month and the triplets are due in 3 weeks. We need a place to stay at until then. Dad’s place is too small, plus Jaslyn lives with him, I thought staying with mama but she said I need to be closer to you. “You’re gonna want your mother when labor happens.” She said. Can I stay with you?”

“Yes baby but what about Devin?”

“Umm.. he’s staying across the street at his mom’s. Hiding from you.”

“Smart boy, ha ha ha. Are you hungry, baby? I’m about to start dinner.”

“Starving! I’m eating for 4 now, ha ha ha!”




Nicole settled in while Mom made dinner. We were excited to see Nicole again, she can be fun but she also can be a jerk. I was done with my homework and sat down to watch some TV. Nicole soon joined me.

“Whatcha watchin’ kiddo?”

“Adventures of Captain Crunchy. It’s really funny cause bad things always happen to him!”

“Sounds like every other cartoon show.”

“So what are you gonna call your babies?”

“Call? Like name them?”

“No. Devin is your step brother and those are his babies. So are they gonna be called your step nephews/kids?”

“What? Ha ha ha ha! No, kiddo. These are just my kids.”

“Oh. Do other people think it’s weird?”




“Probably but we don’t care. Devin and I are not blood related and was together before mom and your dad. It’s just easier to not mention that our parents married each other. But honestly, this type of thing happens more often than you think.”

“What are you babies gonna be? Disa like your or Navox like Devin?”

“We won’t know until the babies are born but they’ll most likely be a mixed Navox.”

“I hope they won’t be a freak monster like me.”

“Hey. You’re not some freak monster. Don’t listen to those kids, they are just jealous and they are jerks. So tell me about this little girlfriend of yours. I heard she’s cute.”

“Yeah! I think you’ll like her too! Her mom is also having a baby too. Maybe you can be friends with her.”

“Maybe, she’ll see.”




Giana came in the living room and asked us if we wanted to play a video game. Naturally we said yeah and it was on. Dad got us a new racing game which I was already pretty good at. Noelle and I play it yesterday and I wasn’t happy when she kept winning. But I thought today would be my day and I would win.




“That’s no fair! You’re cheating, Nicole!”

“No way, Devin has this game and I watched him play. I know all of the shortcuts.”

“Rai is always such a big baby!”

“Shut up! No I’m not! You just like to cheat!”




After dinner my sisters swarmed Nicole, taking turns on feeling the babies kick. I think everyone got a turn feeling the kicks. Nicole asked me if I wanted to feel, I was surprised that she asked me. People never wanted me near their babies. Passed on her offer, I knew I would feel awkward touching her tummy. Plus I thought it would feel weird having some baby kicking at you. I always wondered if it ever hurts the mother.




Bedtime rolled around quickly, we had a big day tomorrow. The harvest festival at the farm was starting and we planned to spend all Saturday there. I went to check on Nicole in the guest room and tell her goodnight. She was sitting on the bed talking to her belly.

“Can they hear you?”

“Yeah, they love the sound of my voice and Devin’s. I think they are missing daddy, Dev usually talks to them before bed. Wanna talk to them?”

“What do I say to them?”

“Just say hi. I know they can’t wait to meet their cool uncle.”

“I don’t think I’m cool. I’m a fr-“

“No. Don’t you say that. You are not that. C’mere and sit with me.”




“Kids are always gonna say shit to you and you gotta learn to ignore. You are not what they say. If yo believe that then they will keep calling you that.”

“But I can’t even do genie things or wolf things. I don’t even want to do wolf thing anyway. If I could be a real genie then I would be happy.”

“You are a real genie, kiddo. So you can’t do what genies do; yet. No big deal. You will soon, it may take longer. I know how it feels to be on the outside. Being a Disa wasn’t easy at first. I couldn’t fit in with Navox kids nor could I with Hydronia kids. Plus I couldn’t attend Navox union events or Hydronia union events either. Not being able to be apart of a union bites but ya know what? I still got my family, that’s even better than some genie union. Just be happy with the little things you have, kid. It’s better than nothing at all.”

“I’m happy cause I got a girlfriend but I also want a friend who is a boy so we can talk about boy stuff.”

“You got brothers. Y’all can talk about boy stuff, right?”

“Yeah but they have other boy friends to hang out with and I don’t. But I should be happy with just Noelle?”

“Noelle is something but you’ll have a best guy pal one day. You won’t always live in Riverview, kid. Mom, your dad, they are city folks. One day, they’ll want to leave this place.”

“Really? But I don’t wanna leave Noelle.”

“Trust me but it’s probably a long time from now. Maybe after high school. You should head to bed, kiddo.”




I had a feeling that Nicole knew more of what she was saying. I never thought about us ever moving away. Before Noelle, I did but now; I don’t want to leave. I had promised to be Noelle’s boyfriend forever and Jada told me to never break a promise. I left the guest room and saw Mom sitting on the couch. She was sad and appeared to be crying.

“Are you okay, Mom?”

“Yes baby, why aren’t you in bed?”

“I wanted to tell Nicole goodnight first.”

“Okay, go head to bed now. I’ll come tuck you in soon.”

“Don’t be sad Mom. When I marry Noelle, I’ll tell you first.”

“Thanks, baby. Now go.”




The news about becoming a grandmother in almost less than a month was hard on Mom. It would be different if she knew at the beginning. Having your first born showing up without notice during her 8th month of pregnancy is a lot to take in.

“I don’t even look like a grandmother!”





“But you’ll be a sexy grandmother. I’m a sexy granddad and great-granddad.”

“I’m not ready for the grandmother title yet. I look too young to be called “grandma”.”

“They can call you, “sexy mama.”.”

“I’m serious, B. I don’t have much time to prepare. I’m still raising little ones and I’m about to be a grandmother. I thought I would have more time. Nicole is only 24.”

“I became a daddy at 21. Now I’m a sexy papa at 64.”

“Cause you were irresponsible. I had Nicole when I was 37, Jaslyn at 41 and your surprise quads at 43. I allowed time for me to do something with my life before I started to have babies. I was hoping Nicole and Jaslyn would still do the same.” 




“Shit happens, Nala. I’m sure Nicole and Devin weren’t trying to have kids just yet. You forget Devin is mine and that apple didn’t roll too far from the tree.”

“So it’s your fault?”

“If if makes ya feel better?”

“Okay sure. I’ll blame you for making me into a grandmother before I’m ready. Ha ha ha ha!”

“There’s that sexy laugh that I wanted to hear, Nala.”




“Mmm, Nala. I know. That’s what the triplets can call me.”

“No. That’s my nickname for you. I call you that when I want you to sit on my face.”

“Oh B.! Seriously? Ha ha ha. How can you think about that when we have a situation? Those babies are gonna be your grandkids too.”

“That’s all I ever think about. I got 36 grandbabies and one great-grandbaby. No big deal for me. My dick is hard, I like your outfit but it’s 10 times sexier on the floor. The kids are in bed ; I wanna lick on your clit.”

“Baby, aren’t you a charm.”

“We’re married; so you wanna?”





My parents are so gross.




Breakfast was quick, we were excited about harvest fest. Hay rides, pie eating, face painting, funnel cakes, pumpkin patch, apple bobbing and bonfires. This was our favorite time of the year next to Christmas.




Dad, my brothers and I all bobbed for apples. I wanted to win the stuffed teddy bear for Noelle. She was watching and I needed to win. She cheered me on while I tried to get as many apples as possible.

Mom wasn’t sure if I should do this cause of my lungs. Dad thought it was be okay but I ran out of air quickly. I had to stop and I was disappointed. Mom gave me my inhaler, I felt so defeated that I couldn’t win Noelle a prize. She said it was okay but I don’t think it was.




Afterwards, dad took Noelle, Clarice and I on a hay ride. Noelle was having fun but Clarice wasn’t so much.

“Daddy! Stop! My tummy feels weird!”

Clarice whined. Dad stopped but Clarice changed her mind when she saw a girl from school. She was one of the popular kids and didn’t want her to think that she was a baby. Dad started up the tractor and resume. Clarice tried her hardest not to puke. Noelle and I kinda laughed at her. Her face was hilarious. 




Near sundown. was the last pie eating contest of the day. I was looking forwarded to this. Free pie! I was determined to win a prize for Noelle however Noelle also joined the contest. I was a little torn cause I wanted to win but wanted Noelle to win but didn’t want to lose by Noelle either. I tried to not over think it. I sense Jada near by and I tried to relax.

“This is gonna be so fun!”

Noelle squealed. I smiled back and told myself to have fun.

“You kids have no chance against a pregnant female genie. Ya sure you kids wanna do this?”

Nicole challenged. We laughed and told her that we was gonna beat her.

“Bring it, kiddos!”




The bell rang and we all drove our faces into the berry pies before us. Challenging a pregnant genie was no piece of cake. Without no doubt, Nicole devoured that pie and shown it no mercy to her pregnant fury. Nicole won an overstuffed teddy bear.

“Maybe the babies will like it.”

I said to Nicole, trying to not be a sore loser. I really hated to lose but I was okay with this loss.

“Or your girlfriend will. This would smother the babies.”

“I can give it to her?”

“Yeah. This better be the only thing you give it her.”


“Nothing kiddo. You’re too young to understand.”

Years later, I know what Nicole was saying. Nicole can have such a perverted mind at times.




After I told Noelle that the prize was hers, Nicole let out a sharp yelp before falling onto the ground. I notice a puddle a liquid under Nicole as she grunted while digging her fingers into grass.

“Nicole! Are you okay?!”

“I’m not ready! I’m not ready! I’m not ready! This can’t be happening!”


“Owwwww! Noooo! I’m not ready!”




“Is it the babies?”

“Yes! Raiden; please. Get mom, your dad and Devin so I can kill him.”

“Okay, I will! Are you really gonna kill Devin?”

“Hurry Raiden! Owwww! Please!”




I shouted for my parents and ran while Nicole hollered in pain. I found mom first and told her that I think the babies were trying to come out. Mom dropped her plate of a freshly made funnel cake and asked me where was Nicole.




“Nicole said I need to get Devin so she can kill him. Why she wanna do that? He won’t get to see the babies.”

“Sweetie, sometimes women say things they don’t mean when they are in labor. Find Devin and your father.”

We headed towards Nicole who was now sitting on the ground with her legs opened. It was too late to take Nicole to the hospital, these babies were on their way out now. Mom knelt down and screamed for help as she  quickly removed Nicole’s underwear exposing the crown of the first baby coming out.  As disgusted as I was viewing the miracle of birth, I couldn’t turn away.

“The thing about genie babies, they come without much notice. Nicole sweetie, I had you at the ice cream shop but you are doing great. Just push a little.”

Mom said as the first baby fell into her hands. Help quickly arrived with towels in hand. My Mom asked who was a doctor but one of the people was just a nurse. In a matter of 10 minutes, Mom delivered 4 screaming babies. Nicole almost passed out when Mom told her she wasn’t done after the 3rd baby was delivered.

“Remember Nicole when I was supposed to have triplets? Out came Jordan. Those Montigo men and their surprises, baby.”

Mom laughed as she held the 4th baby. 




Nicole and the babies were taken to the hospital to be checked out. Mom  had left with Devin but the rest of us stayed for the bonfire. I witness the births of my newest nephew and  3 nieces. And also thought it was really gross. Now I knew how babies come out but I was curious how did they get in there and why.

“Dad? How do babies get inside of mommies and why do they come out of vaginas? It’s gross. Did I come out like that too?”

“Ha ha ha ha. Well I’ll tell you this. You didn’t come out that way. Clarissa was in a coma and the doctors originally wanted her to go into labor, hoping the labor would wake her. But Clarissa was having 8 and you guys had to be cut out.”

“Okay but how did we get in there?”

“Well son. We will have this talk when you’re 15.”

“But I wanna know now.”

“I know but I don’t know how to have this type of talk yet. I’ll be ready when you’re 15.”


He was not ready then, ha ha ha.




I got to see the new babies the next day since I had to see my doctor. I got a new inhaler for my lungs and doctor said that I was getting stronger. Mom held the oldest and only boy named Avery. Devin held the second born named Ebony. Nicole held the third born named Ivory and I held the youngest name Evelyn. The occult test came back with the results that Nicole and Devin were eager to know. The quads were all Navox like Nicole predicted.

There was a huge question of what was the next step. Devin and Nicole’s place wasn’t done yet and there was no baby things at our house. Dad called up Fraine asking if she still had the cribs for their quads. Dad recently got them toddler beds. Fraine had the cribs in storage and Nicole was relieved to hear that. Fraine still had tons of baby items although Leda was using some for Lander.

Leda and Topaz offered all clothes that their babies already outgrown, their babies were about 4 months old now. Since Lamar and Jordan stayed with Mama, Nicole could use their room for the cribs until their place was ready. Nicole and Devin were happy that they decided to return to Riverview this weekend instead next.



“I think Evelyn likes me. She held my finger!”

I was excited to know that a baby liked me. I didn’t really get to hold babies and Nicole was okay with me holding Evelyn. Leda was reluctant but she was that way with all kids. Lander was special because she almost lost him. Topaz was okay with kids holding her twins but we could only for a few seconds. But Nicole let me hold her as long as I could. She trusted me and didn’t think I would drop her.

“I think you’re her favorite cool uncle, kiddo.”





It was nice seeing my parents holding Avery. I think dad got a bit of the baby fever.

“You look so hot holding Avery. Even hotter when you got my baby growing inside of you.”

“Don’t get any ideas, B. . We are done having babies. Isn’t 53 kids enough?”

“Yeah but you had the sexiest baby bump in the world. Put Avery down, I know an empty room we can use to make a baby in.”

“Borage no! Ha ha ha! We talked about this. After the quints are move out, you and I are gonna travel the world. Don’t want that?”

“Well yeah but I’m getting so hot thinking about my baby growing inside of you.”

“Baby; that don’t sound right.”

“Well umm; you know what I mean. I love seeing you pregnant. So hot.”

“Find another fetish, baby; one doesn’t involve pregnancy.”




Show Yourself: Chapter 8 – Boyfriend

This day was mostly a great day. The day was July 10th, the day of my 7th birthday. My parents planned to throw my litter mates and I a birthday party at the bowling ally in Richdale. Naturally I invited Noelle to my birthday party. She was pretty excited about it, she hasn’t been to Richdale yet but I told how fun the city can be. Noelle’s parents became good friends with my parents. Noelle’s mother, Jolene offered to help plan the party; she enjoy party planning and hosted many parties and charity events back in Bridgeport. On the day of the party, Jolene and her husband Louis decided to go into the city early.

They wanted to let Noelle and one of her older brothers Malcolm explore the city. The Sheridans offered to take me along cause Noelle asked, Jolene felt it would be a little easier since we had a huge household. My parents were okay with it but Chanel asked if she could come along too. When we left EC last week, dad took Chanel, Tiana and Briana to come stay with us for a couple of weeks. Chanel has been friendly with Malcolm since staying with us. I think she had a crush on him cause she asked to stay for the rest of the summer. My dad quickly figured why the sudden change of mind, originally Chanel didn’t wanna come. Dad told her she could stay for 2 extra weeks. She was happy with just that.




Noelle’s parents took us to the park first, the party didn’t start until 4 and we got into town around 12. Jolene felt since it was a nice day out, we could spend the day here until the party starts. Noelle and I headed towards the see-saws, it’s one of our favorite things to do.




“Hey Sunshine, I was thinking of something cool. I think you should be my boyfriend now. I really like you and I know you really like me but if you don’t wanna be my boyfriend then maybe Montell can. I think he likes me too and I think he’s cute and nice. So you gonna be my boyfriend now?”




“I dunno. I don’t know if I’m ready to be anyone’s boyfriend. I just turned 7 but I don’t want my brother to be your boyfriend. I guess I can be your boyfriend if you really want me to? How am I suppose to boyfriend anyway?”




“I don’t know. Umm.. bring me flowers and candy? That’s what my brother Jamal did for his girlfriend in BP.”

“My parents don’t give me candy. How am I’m suppose to give you candy?”

“Don’t you get an allowance for doing chores?”

“No. My mom said to not expect things for doing things that need to be done.”

“Oh. How do you get money?”

“Grandparents and I got a lot of those.”

“Cool! Just use that money to buy me candy!”

“Okay! Are you gonna get me candy too since you’re my girlfriend?”

“No. You’re a boy. You’re suppose to give me candy cause I’m the girl.”

“So I get nothing?”

“You do. Kisses!”




“Come here, I wanna show you something!”

I grabbed Noelle’s hands and lead her towards the far end of the park.

“We can’t go too far from my parents.”

Noelle always listen to her parents, they told us to stay where they could see us but I felt we wouldn’t be too far. There was something cool that I wanted to show Noelle. Since it was her first time here, I didn’t want to ruined the surprise.

“We’ll be okay. This is really cool.”

“Where are you taking me?”

“You’ll see.”




I was happy to see it was still there, Clarice and I found this the last time we were here. I was hoping they would still be here when I showed Noelle and it was.

“O.M.G! Sunshine! What are those? So pretty! And butterflies too? I love butterflies!”

“I knew you would like this.”

“Are those tiny fairies?”

“I dunno. I haven’t asked anyone yet. Clarice and I found these like a month ago.”




“Whatever they are, they are so beautiful! Thank you for showing me, Sunshine.”

“You’re welcome I guess. I didn’t think they would still be here. I guess they live here.”

“I wonder can I play with them.”

“Yeah, they like playing.”

“So cool! Let’s do it, Sunshine!”




Noelle danced around with the mysterious glowy pink things. A blue butterfly handed in the palms of her hands. She was excited when that happen. “Look, Sunshine! This butterfly wants to be my friend!” Noelle shouted excitedly. I told her that was cool and attempted to catch a butterfly but failed numerous times. 






“One of the glowy things landed on my hand. This feels so cool.”

“Don’t do anything to scare it off.”

“I won’t  but I think it trying to talk to me.”

“Huh? Those things can’t talk.”




I was happy that a butterfly finally landed in my hands. I happily shown off to Noelle that one finally liked me.

“I got one too! Butterflies never landed in my hands before. I thought maybe they didn’t like me cause they know about my monster thing.”




After a while, Noelle sat down in the grass and asked me to sit next to her. I did but she told me to sit closer to her since I was her boyfriend after all. I felt a little weird and wasn’t sure what else am I suppose to do with Noelle since I was her boyfriend.

“Like this?”

“Yeah, you gotta sit really close to me.”

“Okay. Do you feel weird with me sitting this close?”

“No. I like it. Don’t you?”

“Yeah I like it.”




“Sunshine, can you promise me something?”

“Yeah, what?”

“Will you promise to be my boyfriend forever and ever?”

“Umm.. yeah? I promise. But if I’m your boyfriend forever and ever, then we can’t get married.”

“Oh yeah! Promise to be my boyfriend until we are big enough to get married and have babies.”

“Okay but I don’t wanna have babies. It can just be us. So do I kiss you now?”




“Wait, no!”

I leaned into Noelle to kiss her only to be rejected with her holding my face away from hers. I was confused cause I thought boyfriends and girlfriends were suppose to kiss.


“We gotta have babies, Raiden! And our first kiss gotta be romantic. I saw you eat sand, yucky!”

“But we might have monster freak babies like me and your brother dared me to eat sand!”

“So I would still love our monster freak babies. But really, Raiden; our first kiss gotta be romantic like in the movies.”

“I don’t know how to be romantic.”

“Well we can’t kiss yet. Promise me we will have babies. I heard my daddy tell my mom that making babies is fun. Don’t you wanna have fun?”

“Yeah but.”

“Promise me.”

“Okay. We will have babies.”

“I want lots of babies!”

“Like my dad has?”

“Not that many!”




Noelle heard her mom calling and she quickly ran towards her. I didn’t follow Noelle, I was sad that I made her a promise that I knew that I didn’t want to keep. I only promised her that I would have kids with her so she would kiss me.




“I think you both would make cute babies together. Even if they are monster freaks.”

I felt a cool shiver go up my shine along a small hand going through my hair. I haven’t seen Jada since last weekend in EC. I wasn’t sure if she would follow me here but she said she’ll always be around when I need her. I certainly didn’t feel like I needed her now.




“Hey! I don’t like it when you sneak up on me like that!”

“How else am I suppose to? This way is fun and I enjoy it. You try being dead, not fun at all.”

“Well stop it!”

“I would promise you but I would be lying, just as you are to Noelle. Never make promises that you don’t plan to keep, Raiden.”

“I just wanted a kiss. Besides; it’s gonna be lots of years before we are big enough to get married!”

“Some areas in India have people getting married at the age of 7. You’re old enough.”

“This isn’t India!”





“Why are you here anyway?”

“Don’t you see it is a wonderful day out? And it would be my 7th birthday if I were still alive.”

“Oh. Well my parents are throwing us a party at the bowling alley. You can come.”

“Oh sure. I would love to eat cake, I heard it is a wonderful thing. I also heard bowling could be quite fun. However brother, there’s one problem.”


“I am dead.”



“Just trying to be nice.”

“Yeah but you gotta remember the whole me being dead part.”

“Sorry! But you didn’t tell me why you came out.”

“I told ya. Don’t make promises that you don’t intent on keeping. Let’s say you both stay together until adulthood and she learns that you lied about the whole child having thing, it will break her. But I really don’t see that happening. What are the odds of that even happening.”




“It can happen! Noelle and I be together until we are adults. She likes me and I like her. So it can happen.”

“I know you’re just a kid but that’s unlikely to happen. I mean you’re not exactly a ray of sunshine and I find your pet name of hers to be ironic. Who knows how long she’ll be willing stick around. I see a little chance of her and Montell, sweet boy.”

“Hey! She’s my girlfriend! Monty likes somebody else! You are supposed to be helping me anyway!”

“Clam down. I am just saying. Yes, I am going to help you but I am also telling you the reality of things. I will tell you one thing. Being possessive isn’t attractive and I got a feeling you may ended being that way.”

“What’s possessive?”

“Well not wanting to let your girlfriend or boyfriend to spend time with others, be friends with others or wanting all of their attention. It’s like when you get a whole bag of candy and not wanting to share with your siblings. You’ll get a cavity faster that way.”

“I’m not gonna be like that.”

“Let’s hope not.” 




I heard Jolene and Noelle calling for me. Jada said I should go. I listened and headed towards the front of the park. Noelle was by the swings and asked me to push her. I agreed and pushed Noelle in the swings.




The party was starting, we headed to the bowling alley just a bit before the party started. Noelle’s parents helped my parents set the party up. We had cake, cupcakes and pie since we couldn’t agree which do we rather have. I wanted batman cupcakes, Montell and Antonio wanted banana cream pie while Giana and Clarice wanted cake. Later Montell also wanted cupcakes and Giana and Clarice couldn’t agree on flavors of cake. My parents agreed to get everything given how well meeting our birth mother went.

Everyone won for once in our lives.



Noelle wanted cake, so naturally I got cake. Of course my mom thought I wanted cupcakes and questioned me. I told her I did but since Noelle is now my girlfriend, I should probably get cake too. Mom smiled and laughed, telling me that I didn’t have to eat the same as her. I can still pick whatever I wanted. I thought I would be clever and ask if I could have both. Mom laughed and said she will save me some cupcakes for later cause I didn’t need all of that sugar.




After the birthday singing and having the sweets, we all went to go have fun. Noelle wanted to play skeeball but I wanted to play the space blaster game. I remembered that mom said I could pick whatever I wanted still but agreed to play skeeball with Noelle first. I like playing it and I didn’t want to make Noelle mad.

“We didn’t have to play this first. It’s your birthday.”

“I know but I know how you really, really wanted to play this.”

“You can pick the next game, Sunshine.”





Noelle played a few more other games and I notice that I was low on token. I split some of mine with Noelle cause I thought that was what I was supposed to do. I saw my parents outside, Noelle and I went outside to ask for more tokens. We were unaware of an unwelcome visitor coming our way.




As I was about to ask my mom for tokens, we were all taken from surprise by Clarissa. She came storming to my parents demanding that she come get what’s hers.

“I found a loophole in your arrangement! The adoption is void if I were to wake up! I will be taking my kids away from your whore!”

“What are you talking about? There’s no loophole! We checked with our lawyer!”

“Your whore was really just a legal guardian but not their parent!”

“Maybe you should check again! The adoption was done in Riverview, not in EC. Their law is different. Nakia is their legal parent! Your mother legally signed your rights away after the doctors pronounce you medically dead! You were at the point of no return. Your mother felt it was best for the kids!”



“I don’t care! The lawyer in EC said it’s void! And I can take them if I wanted! Your whore has no right to my children! I will fight you in court! I will make sure she and you will never see them again!”

“Seriously?! You want to take us to court when we have full custody?! You were in a 7 year coma, you refuse to be helped and you attacked 2 of the kids! No judge will allow you near our kids! Our lawyer told us that you have no legal stand with our kids. My wife and I can decide rather you can have anything to do with them or not!”

“You attempted to abduct Giana and cause harm towards Raiden and Giana too. You rejected Raiden, berated him and now you gonna come up to their birthday party and take them? You’re in no right state of mind and I understand that! Please listen to Borage when he said get some help! He said that you agreed with him in going back to Italy!”

“Shut up whore! I don’t need help! I just need my kids! Get out of my way!”

“There’s no way in hell that we are letting you near our kids! We talked about this, Clarissa! You promised me!”




“You said I could see them! I want to see them!”

“I did but only after you get the help you need! You’re still hurt, Clarissa. The kids shouldn’t see you like this!”

“Borage is right, you still need to heal.”

“I am fine! Get the fuck out of my way! I am taking my kids now! I gave them life on this day! I have my right!”

“Clarissa, please listen when I said you don’t You have no legal right! Please don’t have me call the police.”

“Call them so I can tell them how your whore is treating them badly!”



“Raiden, go take Noelle inside.”

“But mom.”

“Don’t you call that whore mom. I am your mom!”

“You said you wasn’t.”

“Raiden, go!”

I grabbed Noelle’s hand and noticed the fear in her eyes. I needed to protected her and decided to listen to my parents when they told me to go inside. As we ran back inside, I could hear Noelle crying.

“That lady; she’s scary. Is she your real mom?”

“No. That lady isn’t my mom. She’s the real freak monster.”



“I just want to be in their lives! They are my kids!”

“We will work with you with that, Clarissa. But you gotta work with us too.”

“You can start by not calling my wife a whore; especially in front of the kids.”

“They can’t call her mom. I’m their mom.”

“We are both their mothers, Clarissa. Our lawyer thinks it’s best you stay away but Borage and I think it’s best if you are apart of their lives. We want you to be apart of us but you need to get help. You’re hurt, you still need to heal, psychically and mentality.”

” Yeah, we will also help you. I know your mother is worried that you didn’t come in. But you need to be seen. And afterwards, we can work something out.”

“How can I be with them if I’m in Italy. We’ll bring them to you, I know the summers are nice there. The kids could spend the summer there. And maybe when they are older, they can go there for school for a semester. There are programs here where they send kids to attend school overseas. The kids are smart and might wanna do something like that.”

“So you’ll let them come see me?”

“Of course, Clar but you gotta get help first.”




Once inside, Noelle calmed down a bit. My parents weren’t yelling anymore and it seems like they had everything under control.

“You’re the best boyfriend ever!”

“What makes me so?”

“You saved me! So brave getting me away from the scary lady.”

“I guess. I didn’t want her to hurt you. She hit me and threw Giana.”


“My dad said she’s sick but I think she’s just a monster. I hate her.”

“She kinda looks like you. She said your mom adopted you. That is your real mom.”

“Yeah but the mom I knew from when I was a baby is my true mom and I love her.”

“I think I love you, Sunshine; my hero.”




“So do I kiss you now. I saved you. Isn’t that romantic enough?”

“I guess it was and it’s also night time.”

“I don’t know how to kiss. Do you?”

“Umm. No. I never kissed before.”

“Oh. Well I guess I can do it like my dad with my mom.”


“I guess we close our eyes.”

“Then how can you see? You might kiss my nose.”

“Okay, we both keep our eyes opened.”




I leaned closer to Noelle as she leaned closer to me. I didn’t feel nervous but I could tell she was. I assure her that it was gonna be fine. We both decided to close our eyes and the magic happen.

“Whoa! That was magical. You are a real genie!”

Show Yourself: Chapter 7 – Together

I don’t remember crawling into bed after last night’s madness. The last I remembered was watching a couple of movies with my family and wondering when will dad be back. When I awake, I notice it was usually quiet and I could hear my dad and Alexia talking in the next room. I didn’t hear any of my siblings, I thought it was a bit odd, was I still dreaming?



“You win. You happy now, B?”

“I won what?”

“Living here with the girls wasn’t a good idea. Last night proved that. It could easily been some sick pervo trying to take the girls. Your crazy baby mama just proves that you were right. Ugh… I hate it when you’re right. You get all smug-ish.”

“Ha ha ha! I do not.”

“See! There’s that smugy face that you make! Jerk! Anyway B., I’m gonna suck it up and move in with my mom.”

“Glad to heard that but why you don’t wanna stay with your mom?”

“Cause my asshole dad gave her that house. I got this feeling that it will give him a reason to start living there. Trust me… My dad isn’t the kind of guy you know around our girls. He’s an abusive, rapist, sociopath. But according to my mom, his fucked up business is in Jericho. He’ll stay where his business is and I hope he does. I wanna follow my sister to Bridgeport. Things would be easier for Tiana and I. Tiana is outcast for being a fanger and I can’t find a decent job. Nobody wants to hire a fanger here. Collette said Ramiro was able to find work and the kids are doing well in school. Would you get mad if I move further away?”

“No. I want what’s best for Tiana. Sometimes I wonder if we should leave Riverview, Raiden is outcast for being different. He doesn’t have any friends. However he did make one a few weeks ago, a new family moved in next door but who know how long it will last. Raiden is moody and she hasn’t seen what happens during a full moon.




“Maybe we all should move to BP. I miss hanging out with you, B.”

“You do?”

“Yeah… We always had so much fun together. Remember? I know you do.”

“Mmm hmm, we had some great times together. We had too much fun, we got twins.”

“Ha ha ha! Totally worth it! But you had to run off and get married. We can’t have any fun or can we?”

“I have special permissions when Nakia isn’t around.”



“Special permissions? Do tell.”

“Well she said hand jobs were okay if I needed a release. Nothing less but that.”

“Psst! A handy? Geeze if I needed a good arm work out. You genies don’t make it easy for a handy! My hand would be raw before you finally cum.”

“Ha ha ha! But I would enjoy it.”

“Yeah? A handy does nothing for me! So it’s just that?”

“Yep but honestly I don’t plan to use any permissions. Nakia is all I need and want.”

“You tease! I was hoping to do something with you.. even if it’s just a handy.”




“I’m not gonna lie, it’s tempting but I remember how better your mouth is.”

“So you wanna?”



“I thought things were getting serious between  your and your boyfriend? You don’t wanna ruin that over giving your babies’ daddy a handy.”

“Your dick is worth it. Ha ha ha! I dunno about Marc. He’s nice, sexy and good to the girls but I’m not sure if he’s the one, ya know. Maybe I shoulda married you, ha ha ha!”

“I know one day, you’ll find Mr. Right.”




“Maybe but you’re Mr. Right now.”

“Ahh you think so?”

“Yeah.. I miss those lips of yours. I miss the way you lick my- Oh hey Raiden! Did ya sleep well, buddy?”

I’ve seen a person turn as red as Alexia did. I wasn’t sure what I just walked into but by the look on Alexia’s face it wasn’t something that I should hear. There was some things they said that I was curious about.

“What’s a handy?”

“Go get dressed son. The others are having breakfast downstairs, there’s still time left.”

“But you didn’t tell me what’s a handy is?”

“Just go before your siblings eat all of the good stuff. Chanel is here, she asked about you.”





I got dressed and headed downstairs, I wasn’t sure why dad wouldn’t tell me what was a handy. I greeted by Chanel when I entered the mess hall. I was shocked that dad and Alexia let us all eat without them but then again, Chanel is 12 and old enough to look after us. For a crappy hotel they sure knew how to host a nice breakfast. French toast, eggs, pancakes, crepes, waffles, bacon, omelets and cinnamon bun. I was in breakfast heaven. It tasted as good as it looked. I think I grabbed a little bit everything on my plate.

“Taste good, huh Rai?”

“Yeah, Chanel. I thought the food was gonna suck.”

“It did buttttt I fixed it! They had old cereal and stale donuts. So I present Breakfast de la Chanel!”

“You conjure this?”

“You betcha!”

“You’re awesome.”

“He he! I know.” 




Our plans for the day were changed for obvious reasons. Dad didn’t say much about last night but only told us that we don’t have to worry about anything. It’s handled, not sure what he meant by that. First we went to a general store, dad asked us to pick out some nice balloons, he didn’t say why but we figure we must be having a party or something. Next we visited a flower shop. This was strange to be honest, we didn’t question it cause we knew we wouldn’t get a straight answer. As we drove away from the city, dad told us that we were going to a special place.

The pavement roads turned into dirt roads, building turning to trees, whatever we was going; it was starting to look peaceful and beautiful. The car came to a stop and we notice we were at a cemetery. But why?




The balloons and flowers were for the graves of our late siblings, Nuri, Desiree and Jada. Since our birthdays were coming up, it made sense to decorate their graves with birthday stuff.

We never visited their graves nor knew about them up until a few weeks ago. It was a peaceful place and I see why dad picked this cemetery to bury them. We asked if dad had a funereal for them, he said they just had a small memorial service. They were buried in the same casket together but they each get their own headstone.




I wondered if dad felt bad about leaving them here when we moved to Riverview. I would feel bad if I moved away from the same town where my child was buried in. Dad said he hasn’t been to their graves since Aries moved out of town. That was a year ago, Aries and his family was the last to leave.




Some of my sisters cried, they were sad even though they never met them.

“Why do cute babies have to die? Why?! Oh why?! Babies are so cute!”

I know Tiana was being sincere, they were her siblings too but she can be a bit dramatic.




“The balloons are a nice touch. Especially the kitty one.”

I felt a cold chill go up my spine as I heard a voice from an unfamiliar girl.

“Who said that?”

I quickly turned my head side to side, trying to figure out where the voice was coming from.

“Try looking behind you.”

I wasn’t sure if I should dare but I was curious of where that strange voice was coming from. I slowly turned my whole body around. I was soon face to face with a girl who looked a lot like me. This was very strange. Am I dreaming?

“Hi stranger. Long time, no see.”




“Who-who are you? Do I know you? Why do you look like me?”

“Duh! Course you do! I am your sister!”

“My-my sister?”

“Yeah. You don’t remember? It’s been almost 7 years since we last seen each other. We lived inside of the same womb for 6 and half months. You’re visiting my grave.”

“You’re a ghost!”

“I like the term Spirit walker. It makes me sound fancy.”

“How did you get here?”

“Well I died..”

“I know that! How am I seeing you?”

“Cause of you. We are supposed to be together. I wasn’t able to leave the Light Realm until you came to my grave. We are connected. We always had been. We shoulda stayed together. Everything; everything went so, so wrong.”



“What do you mean? Did I kill you? Am I a demon?”

“Questions, questions with you. But to answer you, no you did not and no you are not. BUT! You are something but nothing demon like. You have a soul and I am like you, if not then I couldn’t be in the Light Realm. You must have a soul.”

“The crazy woman who had us said I was a demon cause of my hair, eyes and skin.”

“We have a likeness of a special breed of lycans. They are often said to be demons cause of their special powers. White hair, mix match eyes and dark skin are the characteristics of Snow-Cap wolves. They are shapeshifters, they can turn into something other than a wolf.  People see them as demons because of it. Snow-Caps are usually born as twins, one boy and one girl. Even when they are different genders, they are identical. You and I have a likeness of them but we aren’t really Snow-Caps. Having pink in our hair, our eyes don’t match other each and we have a genie father. We weren’t born full wolf. You’re an even 50/50, I’m mostly wolf with a hint a genie. Being born before a new moon didn’t help. Our DNA  got messed up in the process.”

“You know a lot of stuff. You’re just a kid like me.”

“In the Light Realm I was given the gift of knowledge. I know a lot. I even have memories from the short time that I was alive.”

“But you were just a baby.”

“I know. I remember the moments before my death. Dad held me and I passed in his arms. He talked to me and cried. I knew he loved me. I just wish I could tell him to put me next to you. I would still be alive. We were never supposed to be apart. When I couldn’t find you, I let go.”




“You died cause we weren’t together?”

“Yes. Death from a broken heart. I thought you already passed on.  I couldn’t reach your connection. We are soul connected. But I am curious of why you’re still alive. It could only mean one thing.”


“You deny who you are. Even moments after birth, you deny yourself true. Doing so, you didn’t bother to reconnect or notice our connection was lost. I guess in a way, you did kill me.”

“But I didn’t mean to! I don’t wanna be whatever we are supposed to be. Snow cone or whatever! I don’t wanna be a stupid wolf! I wanna be a genie! I am a genie!”

“And I thought only dead people can be trapped in limbo. You’re trapped in self-awareness limbo. Life isn’t going well for you, isn’t it?”


“You have yourself to blame. Quality of life will improve if you accept yourself.”




“I am a genie! Nothing else! I can be all genie one day. I was told if I train long enough. I can!”

“Oh boy; looks like I will be around for a long time. Thankfully I’m dead. I have no other priorities.”

“You talk weird for a kid. How are you a kid? You died as a baby. Shouldn’t you be a ghost baby?”

“You don’t have many friends. I can tell. But to answer your question, I will always appear to be the same age as you but smarter.”


“Just stating the truth.”



“Uhhh… Rai? Who are you talking to?”




“Our sister. See?”

“See what? I don’t see anyone.”

“Are you blind? She’s standing right there!”



“Uhhh. I don’t see anyone standing there.”

“She’s right there. She looks like me and she’s a ghost!”

“I don’t see any ghosts.”

“She’s right there!!!”



“Daddddddd?! Why are boys so weird?”




I felt crazy like Clarissa, talking to a girl who really wasn’t there. Giana teased me about my invisible friend until dad made her stop. We later visited a park and I sat by the pond, skipping rocks across the water. I felt like I might be losing it or I’m just having a strange dream. But the sister that I was talking to felt so real. Was I just imagining this? Clarissa did hit me pretty hard last night.




“Do you always sit alone? No wonder you don’t have any friends.”

“You’re back.”

“Yep. This is a nice park. Why are you sitting here being all gloomy? Do that when you’re 16.”

“Thanks for leaving me hanging. Giana thinks I’m crazy.”

“Well you are talking to a ghost.”

“Not helping.”

“Ha ha ha!”



“Stop laughing at me! I don’t like being laughed at!”

“Chill down, Raiden. This. You see this? That is why you have no friends. Oh so grumpy. I can’t wait to see how you are when puberty hits.”

“I don’t know what that is but you don’t know me! I do have a friend!”

“You have A friend. Keyword, friend. You could have friends. But if you’re happy with just that friend.”

“Shut up!”

“Aren’t you a nice one. That one friend of yours won’t last if you don’t relax. Trust me, this I tell is the truth.”



“Noelle likes me. She will always be my friend.”

“Not if you’re gonna be a grump all the time. I think you take things too seriously.”

“No! Kids call me a freak monster and don’t wanna be my friend.”

“So a few jerks don’t like you cause you’re different. Big deal, there’s no need to push away ones who could be your friend. This whole “I’m mad at the world” attitude isn’t gonna get you very far in life. Please trust everything I have to say. I know of Noelle, and she’s a sweet girl but your attitude will scare her off.”

“How do you know her?”

“We are now reconnected, I know everything that you know. I’m linked to your mind and I only appear to you. No other person can see me. I’m dead after all.” 



“You never told me which sister you are. Desiree or Jada.”

“Oh I didn’t? I thought I did. I’m Jada.”

“Will Nuri and Desiree come out the Light Realm too?”

“Nuri isn’t in the Light Realm, he was born dead; he never received a soul. Desiree is though but she cannot be a spirit walker like me.”

“Why not?”

“She only lived for 2 hours, you have to live for 12 hours at least. I lived for 14. So enough with depressing things. Let’s do something fun and normal like other kids.”




Jada followed me to the horseshoe area. I always wanted to play this but the others were doing something else.

“Normally I would tell you to go play with someone but I wanna see how terrible you are at this.”

“For someone who is supposed to give me advice, you’re kinda of a jerk.”

“I am in a body of a 6 year old, I might as well act like one.”



“Give me a break. I never played this before.”

“Oh this shall be glorious, ha ha ha!”




“UGH! This game is so stupid! I hate it! I never ever wanna play this stupid game again!”

“There we go with the taking everything so serious. It’s just a game, it’s suppose to be fun and sometimes you won’t be so perfect at it. No one wants to play with someone who throws a fit like this.”

“Well you were mocking me! That wasn’t helping either!”

“People will mock you, you gotta learn to not let it bother you.”

“How do I do that?”

“I’ll teach ya.”




Jada can be cool but annoying but I know she was just helping. I may my way to the seesaws, hoping she would like to play with me. But I waited and waited. I didn’t see her anymore. Did she already left me? I thought she was supposed to be around me all the time. I started to feel a bit sad. Maybe my grumpiness drove her away when she was supposed to help me with it.




“Can I join?”

“I was waiting for- Well; yeah, you can.”


Naturally I would reject Briana but I remember how Jada is a ghost and only appears to me. I couldn’t just sit here and wait around to play with the dead. I need to play with the living.



The rest of the day went on pretty well. I had fun with everyone and tried to not take everything so seriously. I notice how my siblings like being around me a little more. I guess Jada was right but now I found myself missing her. I didn’t see her for the rest of the day. I wondered if she already left me. I wasn’t ready, we only just begun.




“Don’t worry, Raiden. I will always be around when you really need me. But until then…..”






Show Yourself: Chapter 6 – Stranger Danger

It was just only a week away from my 7th birthday when I made the trip to my birth town of Evansdale County with my litter mates and dad. To be honest, I wasn’t as excited for this trip like the rest of my litter mates; I dragged my feet on getting ready. Our birth mother was stable enough for us to finally come meet her.

My dad told us that we would get to spent the weekend with her instead of a week like originally planned. She would be sent off to back home to Italy to see a specialist that her mother had planned before she suddenly awaken. Grandma Antonia still had faith that my birth mother would wake up and wanted her to be transfer back to Italy. Just one day before the transfer, she awaken however the specialist still wants to see her. She finds her case interesting and the doctors in EC felt it was best. They never seen anything like this. My birth mother is a medical miracle.




Upon entering the city, I thought this place was pretty awesome. I couldn’t believe that we use to live here. EC is so much fun than boring ol’ Riverview. We all ohh and ahh as we drove down in the downtown area; Clarice asked if we could move back here. My dad just smiled and said, “Life is back in Riverview and I love it.” Clarice frowned, Riverview isn’t as exciting as EC; nor was Richdale to be honest. We didn’t understand what dad meant by that, it would be years before we figured it out.

Of course the question of where are we gonna be staying was asked. Would we be staying in one of those fancy hotels? My dad sighs as we pulled up into a hotel that wasn’t as nice as the ones we passed by. “Here.” My dad said with slight annoyance in his tone. We were confused of why we would be staying at this kind of place, we knew we had money. It turns out the only reason why we would be staying at this crummy hotel cause of Alexia. Unknowingly to my dad, Alexia failed to tell dad that she was now staying in a hotel after her apartment was burnt down from a flash over fire. Alexia refused to move in with her mother and opted to stay into hotel. My dad was pretty pissed off when he learns my sisters, Tiana and Briana were living at this hotel for the last 6 months. It was worse than what he remembered. My dad turned to us and said, Tiana and Briana may be coming back home with us if Alexia still refuses to move in with her mother. He could see why Uncle Al had Axel to come live with him and he suggested that my dad do the same with Tiana and Briana.



Our room wasn’t as bad as we thought it would be, it had a double bed with an adjoining room with 2 bump beds. Since there was 5 of us kids, we fought who would get to sleep in the bed with dad. The double bed was much nicer than the bump beds.

We had an hour to kill before we could go see our birth mother. Alexia was at work and the twins were at their grandma’s. My dad was a little bit happy to know that Alexia doesn’t leave them here all alone. We watched some TV while dad messed with his phone for a while. Before we knew it, it was time.




We were quiet on our way to the hospital, we didn’t ask any questions; I think we were all kinda nervous. Dad finally broke the silence telling us that this was the hospital that we were born in. We still didn’t have anything to say, we just stood quietly in the elevator. “Which button do I press?” I asked dad since I was the closest to the buttons. “Three.”




She sat in a wheelchair, facing the door as she was waiting there for a while. Her face lit up as the door swung open. To everyone’s surprise, Giana raced up to her with her arms open; “Mommy!” she shouted. The rest of us stood there awkwardly, glancing over at each other. We all had the same look on our faces, do we call her mommy too?




“You are so beautiful! You must be Giana?”


“That’s such a pretty name that your daddy picked out. You daddy told me all about you kids. Clarice, Antonio and Montell. Wow you all look so much like your daddy and I.”

“What about me?”

I felt a bit uneasy at this moment, she didn’t bother glancing at me nor did it seemed that she even acknowledge me. I know dad told her about all of us, even me.

“Eli? I thought you had red hair. I like that color. But anyway honey I thought you said I had quints. Where is the 5th one?”

My dad cleared his throat before he spoke, I was confused that she thought I was Eli. 

“That’s Raiden, our 5th child. Raiden is ours. Remember?”

She laughed as my dad was telling her the funniest joke ever.

“Sweetie that can’t be right. You must be mistaken but a mother knows her children; even if she’s meeting them for the first time. I’m looking at these 4 and I know they are mine.”

My dad wasn’t sure how to respond to her statement, you could cut the tension in the room with a knife.

“Maybe this wasn’t a good time. I think you need some rest, Clar.”

“Don’t be silly, honey. I’m fine, I’m just so happy to finally to my babies. I just wished you brought my 5th child. She’s probably missing her mommy too.

My dad was trying hard to keep his cool at this point, all of use felt really awkward and confused.

“We technically had 8 but only 5 lived. 2 girls and 3 boys, Clarissa. Antonio, Giana, Clarice, Montell and Raiden. The other 3 didn’t make it. I am sorry.”

“Raiden. Oh yeah! He has my father’s hair. Hi Raiden! There’s my 5th baby! Borage, you gotta stop joking around with me like that.”

I knew that this day would be awful….




“You are all just precious. Have your daddy been good to you all?”

“Yeah! So are you gonna come live with us now?”

“You bet! I can’t wait to be a family. This is what I always wanted. Children and a wonderful man. I never thought I would be so lucky. I think maybe it’s time we plan a wedding. You girls can be my flower girls!”

“Who are you gonna marry? Can daddy come too?”

“Gia.. sweetie. What do you mean? Of course your daddy is coming! I’m marrying your daddy, silly girl.”

“But daddy is already married to our mom.”

“I’m your mom. What are you talking about? Borage did we wed already? You didn’t tell me that part.”

“Kids.. can you excuse us for a bit. I need to talk to your mother alone. You kids can go play in the play area right outside the door.”

Shit was getting strange and we didn’t question it, we quickly exited the room. I think we all were getting a little scared of her.




I didn’t stray far away, I was curious of what they had to talk about. I carefully pressed my ear against the metal, hoping I could hear them. However they yelled loud enough for anyone to hear. Things got pretty heated up quickly.

I could hear my dad talking claim at first, explaining to Clarissa that he already been through with her over and over. Dad stated that he was married to mom and how she legally adopted us. At first she acted as this was the first time she was told this then suddenly acted as she already knew. That’s when things got heated, she referred my mom as a family-stealing-whore. She said such awful things about her, things that I refuse to repeat.




“How could you let that whore steal my family! We were suppose to be married! You asked me to be your wife on that night! How could you betray me like this?! How Borage! How Borage!”

“I’ve told you this Clarissa! You said you understood why and asked to meet my wife! You wanted all of us to be a family!”

“No! I changed my mind! I don’t want that whore raising my kids! Those are my kids and you are mine! Divorce her! I’m back now and we don’t need her!”

“I am not going to do that, Clarissa! Things are different now!”




“You love me?! Do you? Do you love me?!”

“Yeah but not in the way you’re thinking.”

“Do you love me?!”

“I told you….”

“That’s not answering my question!”

“The way you are now; you’re not the same person that I once knew. This. I don’t know who this is. Yeah I know you suffered some serious head trauma but this; the person you are now, I don’t love you. I love my wife.”

“That whore has you brainwashed! You don’t love her! You love me! Say it! Say that you love me and we will have our family like we planned!”



“Clarissa no! I should had listen to the doctors! You are not ready but somehow you talked me into this. You are not ready to meet my kids!”

“Your kids?!”

“Yes my kids! They will be my kids until you agree to be evaluated! This is not the kind of person I know you are! Please let the doctors help!”

“No! I am fine! I don’t need to see anyone! I am ready to take back my family from that whore!”

“Stop calling my wife a whore! She did what most women won’t do! Stepped up and raise another woman’s children as they were her own! You don’t have to like my wife but you need to respect her as she would respect you!”

“I would never give that piece of trash any kind of respect! Not until she hands you and my kids over to me!”

“I am not yours! I am not some thing to be had or given! I’m done with this, Clarissa! You need rest. You can see the kids when you’re level-headed again… Is that okay?”

“Nothing will be okay until you admit that whore brainwashed you and you love.”

“I am not doing this with you, Clarissa; I just can’t.”



I could hear some trays being thrown or knocked down. I was starting to get worried. As my dad stop yelling and spoke calmer those Clarissa, she began to cry and beg. My dad grew quiet and soon stormed out of the room. I quickly rushed away from the door and pretended that I was getting a drink from the water fountain. Dad turned towards me, I could see the regret and anger in his face, “We should probably go. It was too soon.”



I opened the door to Clarissa’s room, she was on the floor still pleading to my dad as he was still in there. It was pretty sad to see her that way.

“I’m sorry baby. We can make everything okay. I can get better on my own. I just need and our kids.”

“Are you okay?”

She got silent, her glowing eyes were frozen on me.

“Clarissa? I mean mom… Are you okay? Do you need some help?”

“Help. Help… You think I need help?”




Saying the word help was the wrong thing to say. Before I knew it, she quickly rose from the floor and made a b line towards me with fury.

“I don’t need help! I am fine! I am fine! Why must you all think that I need help? Does it look like I need help?! All I need is my husband to be and my children!”

“But that wasn’t what I mean.. I mean by-“

“Shut it! I don’t know who you are but how dare you posed as my 5th child! You killed her! You killed her, you little demon! How could you killed your sister! She was just like you but you had to kill her! You are a demon! Stay away from my other children!”

“Wha-what?! I didn’t! I didn’t kill anyone! I don’t know what you’re talking about!”

“Don’t lie to me demon! I know what you are! White hair, heterochromatic eyes, dark skin, you are a lycan demon! You can’t turn, can’t ya? You turn into your true form! A demon! A demon with dark hair and red eyes! Stay back!”

“I’m not a demon….”

“Demons lie! I know your lies! You killed the 3 other babies, demon!”




I knew I was some kind of freak monster but a demon? No. That couldn’t be true but was it? Am I truly some demon? Did I really killed the 3 other litter mates? My eyes were filled up with tears, she continue to berate as I cried. It wasn’t long before dad pulled me to the side and shouted at Clarissa.

Kids always said mean things to me, it hurt me but it was nothing compare to what the woman who gave me life said to me. I actually cried. I never cried the way I did that day. And ever since this that, I hated her. I refuse to ever call her mother.



“Am I demon?” I asked my dad, hoping to get a straight answer. “I’m almost 7. I can handle the truth about myself.” I wasn’t sure if I truly wanted to hear the answer. My dad sighs and placed his palm on my shoulder, “Nothing your mother said is true. She’s not well. You can’t take anything she said to heart.” I brushed my dad’s hand away from my shoulder, “That woman is not my mother. My real mom is at home. Can we go home?” I said coldly. If she can refuse to see me as her child then I can refuse to see her as my mother.




“Let’s be fair, son. She was having an off day and sometimes she will have days like this.”

“But you sounded really mad at her. She said bad things about my mom. I don’t like her. I hate her!”

“Raiden. Don’t say that, Clarissa will always be your mother. The things she said, she didn’t mean. Today wasn’t a good day for her. Her mind is messed up and I forget about that. I shouldn’t get mad at her.”

“You said mom adopted us, so that means Clarissa isn’t our mom anymore. I know what adoption means, dad. I read it on the internet.”

“There’s still some gray lines in that area. You’re too young to understand but this type of adoption is different.”

“I’ll never call her “mom”.”




We left the hospital without telling Clarissa good bye, dad said she wasn’t well and we needed to go. I didn’t mind, I didn’t want to tell her bye anyway. Giana whined saying that she wanted to give her hug and had more things to tell her. Dad quickly changed the subject by telling us that we were going to pick up Tiana and Briana so we could go to Domino Palace. Their birthdays were last weekend and dad promised he would take them there when we came to town. Noelle said there’s one in Bridgeport and it’s a lot of fun.

Noelle was right, this place was pretty fun. I had a good laugh watching Monty attempting to climb up the pole; only for him to fall on his ass time and time again.

“Shut up! It’s not funny!”

“Just give it up! You’re gonna be flat and have nothing to sit on! Ha ha ha!”

“Watch me! I’ll do it this time!”



It took a couple more tries before Monty eventually climbed up. “I told ya!” Monty shouts from the top floor. I said nothing but kept laughing at the memory of watching him fail numerous times.




I tried to forget about earlier in the day; Tiana and Briana made sure of it. We don’t get to see them as much but they both like talking and playing with me more. Briana thinks what I am is cool and Tiana relates to me more. EC isn’t exactly vampire friendly and she doesn’t have many friends like I do.



“Sometimes my mama is like “Get down! Tables are for glasses, not for asses!”

“Ha ha ha ha! That’s funny!”

“Then she makes a mad face like this!”

“Ha ha ha ha! So does my mom when she gets mad!”

“Sometimes it funny to make mama mad on purpose but my granny said not to do that. But why not? It’s really funny to see my mama mad! It’s the only fun I have cause I got nobodies to play with. Just Bri but she gotta play with me.”

“Yeah I know! My litter mates gotta play with me.”

“Litter mates? Oh I get it! Puppies! Ha ha ha! But isn’t only you just half wolf?”

“Yeah… at least you’re one thing.”

“Well… at least you got some genie. I got none! Briana took it all!”




We got back to the hotel, dad let us played in the rec room for a bit. It was getting closer to our bed time and dad sent me to go get Giana since she’s the last one in the rec room. I headed to the second floor when I heard Giana and Tiana shouting. I looked over the rail and saw someone trying to Giana to go with them. I got a better view of the person and saw it was Clarissa.

“Get go of me!”

“Hey lady, stop it!”

“I’m her mother, you’re coming with me!”

“No! Get go! Get go!”

“Hush it! Just come with me to the cab. I’m not gonna tell that whore take.”

“Stop it lady!”

“I’m not going with you!”




“Giana!” I shouted from the rail. Giana and Tiana both looked up at me. “Raiden, get daddy!” Tiana shouted as Giana continue to loosen from Clarissa’s grip.

“Back off, demon boy. I am taking my child with me!”

At this moment I only just saw red and quickly ran downstairs to Giana’s aid.




Clarissa quickly picked Giana up as I raced towards them. Tiana was in a lost of words and didn’t have the will to run for help. Giana continued to struggle away from Clarissa by kicking and wailing her arms around.

“Stop wiggling! You’re going home with me!”

“Put my sister down!”

“My child! She’s coming with me!”

“No she’s not! We aren’t yours anymore! Go away!”

“You! You were never mine but Giana, Clarice, Antonio and Montell are mine! I will take what belongs to me!”

“Let her go now!”




I started to growl aggressively towards Clarissa, I could feel myself starting to turn but differently from when it’s a full moon. “Oh no you don’t! You’re not going lycan on me!” Clarissa snapped as she swiftly slapped me after tossing Giana onto the ground, as she were a rag doll. “Don’t hurt my brother!” Tiana shouted. Clarissa made a step towards Tiana, causes her to back away a bit. “Don’t.” I growled before lunging towards Clarissa. She quickly wrapped her hands around my throat and proceed to choke me. Giana screams stop.




Clarissa let go of my throat and then shoved me onto the ground right as my dad was approaching. “Clarissa!” My dad shouted as he raced towards us. She took a step back and let out a low growl as Alexia came racing behind my dad.Ti-ti! Baby are you okay?” Alexia shouted. Tiana said she was okay but thinks Giana and I are hurt. “I’m fine!” I growled as I rubbed my neck.




“You fuckin’ bitch! How could you harm your own children!” Alexia yelled as she lunges towards Clarissa. “Alexia, don’t.” My dad said as held Giana. Tiana began to cry and I attempted to comforted her, “We’re okay, Tiana. Dad got this.” Tiana wiped the tears from her eyes, “Why did that lady tried to take Giana and hurt you?” I didn’t answer and dad told me to take Tiana to their room. I nodded and walked Tiana back to her room.

I turned around to see Alexia trying to hold Clarissa off as she yelled and screamed that my dad was stealing her babies. At this point, others were coming out of their rooms too see the drama unfolding in the parking lot. After Tiana return to her room, I attempted to return to the parking but was stopped by dad who was still carrying Giana. “Take your sister back to our room and stay.” My dad said firmly, I knew he was serious and did what he said.




After some time, dad finally returned to our room. Just minutes later we could hear Clarissa begging and pleading at our door. “This is shit.” My dad said coldly. He grabbed his cell, I wasn’t sure who he was calling. I figured the police or the hospital. He told us to stay in the room and away from the windows. “I’ll be back.” My dad said before heading outside where Clarissa awaits him. We could still hear her yelling and begging for a while. Then suddenly it was quiet for a while. The door opened and it was Alexia with the twins. “Your dad asked us to hang out with you guys for a bit. He’ll be back as soon as possible. He gotta take care something with your bio-mom. Things are cool. Wanna watch a movie?” Alexia smiled.


Show Yourself: Chapter 5 – Full Moon

I started out my day out just like any other day. Dad was missing from breakfast, Mom decided to let him sleep it. Both of my parents had been working extra hard this week, they both looked forwarded for today. It’s Wednesday and they both had the day both, they usually use this day off to spend time together.

During the summer, my parents made the older siblings take us to the park where we would spend most of the day at. I never understood why we had to leave the house for hours. They were gonna visit the spa or go out to eat or go dancing later on, but never got why they stayed at the house during the day. I figure they were doing boring adult stuff but once I got older, I figured out why. During the time we were at park or at school, my parents used this alone time to basically fuck like bunnies.

My parents didn’t really get to spend much alone time when I was a kid, my parents were usually tired of work and caring for us. I now understood why we were often kicked out of the house on Wednesdays. I can say that I don’t blame them. Sex is important, it’s Navox nature.




Mom gave us her usual marching orders for this day, however Mom told Janaya to have us home before sundown. Sometimes we didn’t have to come home before sundown. We would visit one of our relatives on the block. Mom’s tone was serious, we had to be home before sundown and she would be calling the house phone.

“Don’t worry Mom, I’ll have everyone home before. I know tonight is a full moon.”

“Alright. Sylar will be home all day, you guys can have lunch at Fraine’s house today.”

I cringed when I heard Janaya mention tonight would be a full moon. It’s why we had to be home before sundown. I hate when there’s a full moon! It’s when I freak into that freak monster and I will be stuck in that form until dawn. Not only would I look like a freakish monster but my moods are unpredictable. I could possible turn on my family, hurt them, I’m dangerous when I’m in that form. When I turn, I have to keep to myself in the tree house alone. It’s the only reason why my parents had a tree house built.




After breakfast, Janaya took us up the street to Cypress park. Janaya kept trying to rush us there. She was a bit more happy than usual. She had a no school day, but I knew there was more to it. When we got there, we saw Devon Sherwood. He’s the older brother of our sister Devi. Janaya has a crush on him and knew he would be there with our sister. But I was also happy when I saw Noelle at the park with her older brother Javon. She was playing hopscotch and squeal once she saw me.

“Come join me, Sunshine!”

I hated it when she calls me that. Apparently it’s my nickname from her cause I’m anything but sunshine and happiness. I smiled back and join her.



“How do I play this?”

“What? You never played hopscotch before?”

“No.. No one ever wants to play with me besides my brothers and sisters.”

“I played hopscotch all the time in BP. It’s so much fun!”

“So how do I play?”

“You throw this rock and whatever number it lands on, you can’t hop on it.”




I wasn’t so great at hopscotch at first. I kept hopping on the square that I was supposed to avoid. I was starting to get a bit more frustrated than my usual. Probably cause there will be a full moon tonight and I’m a bit more cranky.

“This game is stupid! Why would anyone play this dumb game!”

“Cause it’s fun, Sunshine! Trust me, you’ll like it.”

“Stop calling me Sunshine! It’s dumb like this game!”

“Cheer up, grumpy pants. Today is a pretty day!”

“Today is dumb!”

“Well if you’re gonna be a Mr. Grumpy Pants today then I think I’ll go home…”

“Wait.. no. I’m sorry! I’ll play your dumb game.”




I didn’t want Noelle to go home, but I didn’t want to play this game either. I couldn’t help but be moody today, I could see Noelle’s patience was wearing thin today. I got a sense that Noelle didn’t want to deal with my grumpiness today.

I was always a jerk at times, I wasn’t use to having someone wanting to play with me and be my friend. Noelle liked me but she had her limits. I knew I needed to stop being a jerk or she would stop being my friend. But deep down inside, I think I was trying to run her off before she realize what I’m really am. I don’t want her to ever see or know what happens to me during a full moon.




I was getting a hang of the game until Noelle tripped and fell onto the pavement. I wasn’t sure what to do. She was quiet with a blank expression on her face. I stepped closer to Noelle asking her if she was okay. She buried her face into her dirty palms and began to sob.

“Hey! Don’t cry! Are you hurt?”

Noelle said nothing but continued to sob. I was in panic mode, fearing that her brother would think that I hurt her.





“Stop crying or your brother is gonna beat me up! Please Noelle!”

Noelle ignored my plea as she continue to cry while rubbing her scrapped knee.

“Noelle, please! You’re gonna be okay. It’s not that bad. Do you need some help?”

Noelle nodded her head. I reached my hand out to her and she grabbed my hand, pulling herself up.




“You okay, right?”

“Yeah. I’m okay.. I really hurt my knee.”

“Can you walk?”

“I think so.”

I wasn’t sure what I was thinking but I found myself wiping tears away from Noelle’s cheek. She didn’t say anything to me. We had a moment of silence until her face broke out with a smile.






“That was the sweetest thing that anyone has done for me!”

“Huh? What are you talking about?”

“You like me!”

“Well yeah.”

“You do? You like-like me? Like a boyfriend?”




“What! NO! Not like a boyfriend!”

“You should be my boyfriend! I like you and you like me.”

“I like you but not like that!”

“Yes you do! You were gonna kiss me! That makes you my boyfriend!”




“I’m not your boyfriend!”

“Why not? You’ll make the perfect boyfriend!”

“No I won’t! I don’t wanna be anyone’s boyfriend!”




“Then you shouldn’t act like you wanted to kiss me if you don’t wanna be my boyfriend!”

“But I wasn’t trying to kiss you. I was trying to make you feel better.”

“Kissing me would make me feel better. I thought you wanted to be my boyfriend!”




“Well I’m a boy and your friend. Does that kinda make me your boyfriend?”

“No! You have to kiss me to be my real boyfriend.”

“But I don’t wanna kiss you.”

“Why not? I wanna kiss you.”

“I don’t know. Won’t it be gross? Sometimes I eat sand.”

“What? Why would you eat sand?!”

“I wanted to know why my cat eats it.”

“My cat poops in sand. So did it taste like poop? If so then I never wanna kiss you.”

“Uhhh… no?”




I didn’t want to have lunch at Fraine’s, instead I spent the rest of the day with Noelle. Since Noelle lives next door, Janaya thought it was okay for me to go with Noelle. She told me to come home at 7. I could tell time and kept a close eye on Noelle’s clock. I couldn’t risk her seeing the truth about me.




“My mom is making dinner. You should stay. She said it’s okay.”

“I can’t. I gotta go home at 7.”

“Please Raiden? My mom is making tacos tonight. My mom makes really good tacos.”

“I told you that I can’t.”





“Because I can’t! Why do you keep asking me?! If I said I can’t then I can’t! Get off of my back!”

“You don’t have to be a jerk!”

“You don’t have to be annoying!”



“I was just curious! But if you’re gonna be such a jerk then maybe you should go!”

“Maybe I will go and never come back!”

“What’s wrong with you?!”

“Nothing is wrong with me! Maybe it’s YOU!”

“Get out Raiden! Go home!”





I quickly left Noelle’s house just a little bit before 7. I was so angry at myself for snapping at Noelle at that. I knew for sure she wouldn’t be my friend anymore. I honestly don’t blame her. I was never that mean to her before, but it was getting closer to nightfall and moods are erratic.




I felt my body going through the change earlier than usual. Stress can force me into turning before nightfall. My fight with Noelle trigger my transformation before I could prepare for it.




I could feel my Navox essence converting over to wolf blood. It’s a painful process, I feel myself boiling from the inside and out. Being stuck in mid-transformation is pure agony, causing me to be temperamental and possibly dangerous.



I’m confine to the tree house until dawn for everyone’s safety. It’s lonely and depressing to spend the hours of the night along in a tree house. I’m in too much pain to sleep, not even my parents sleep. My parents can’t sleep knowing how much agony I’m going through.

They take turns checking on me periodically during the night. Mom usually stays up cooking all night, I will be extremely hungry once I return to my normal form. The tree house is filled with games, books and other stuff to keep my entertained. I’m in too much pain to do anything. I just curl up into a ball and wait it out until the sun rises.



I heard the fence being opened and didn’t think too much of it. I figure it just one of my siblings checking on me. However I heard a familiar voice. My heart dropped once I realize who it was.

“Sunshine! I know you’re up there!  You should come down and look at the full moon with me! It’s beautiful. Maybe you’ll stop being such a grumpy pants!”

I let out a low growl, I said nothing to Noelle. How did she know I was up here? Did one of my siblings told her? I couldn’t see them doing that. They knew wasn’t a good idea. I thought if I said nothing, then she think that I’m not up here.



“Oh come on, Sunshine! You can’t hide from me a know! You can pretend that you’re not in there but I know you are. Do I have to come up there and drag you? I will if I have to. I’m coming up!”




“Don’t! Don’t come up here!”

I growled, I couldn’t let her see me like this. She would never want to see me again if she knew the full truth about me. I’m not a full genie and Noelle like genies most of all.

“Okay. So why don’t you come down then. I love full moons and I wanna watch the moon with you.”

“You shouldn’t be here!”

“Why? Did something happen? Are you okay? I’m coming up.”

“No! Please Noelle. Don’t come up here. You should go. Please go!”

“Okay.. Now I’m worried. What’s wrong?”

“Noelle, please go home. You can’t see me.”

“Raiden.. I’m not going until you tell me what’s wrong. I wanna help you.”

“No! Go away Noelle! I never wanna see you again!”

“Raiden! Please come down. I can help you.”

“But you will hate me.”

“I could never hate you. Show yourself. Please.”



Noelle wasn’t going to leave. No matter how much I plead, Noelle refused to leave. I didn’t want Noelle to come up and see me in this form. However it was better for me to come to her than for her to come to me. She said she could never hate me. With my child mind, I believed her. I came down to show myself to her.




“This who I am. What I’m really am.”

“Raiden? Is-is-is that really you?”

“You hate me. I know you do. I hate myself too.”



“Wha-what happen to you? You-you look so different? Do all genies do this?”




“I didn’t want you to see my like this! I didn’t want you to know the truth! I know you hate me! I’m a freak! A freak monster! I’m not a real genie! Just half! My dad is a genie but my real mom is a wolf! I end up being half of both and this is what happens to me on a full moon! I turn into this freak monster! All of the kids don’t wanna be my friend because of this. I bet you really hate me! I’m a freak! I’m a freak and I wish I was dead!”



“I don’t think you’re a freak. I think you’re super cool! How cool is that to be both genie and wolf! I love werewolves too! I think they are pretty cool like genies! But I don’t hate you, Raiden. I just wish you told me this. You don’t have to hide. I like you for who you are! You’re not a freak monster, you’re awesome!”




“No I’m not! I’m just a freak! I can’t even be a real wolf! And I don’t wanna be a wolf! I hate wolves! I wanna be a genie and one day I will be a real genie and not a stupid wolf! Then I can have friends and not be a freak anymore!”




“It’s okay to be what you are. I still wanna be your friend.”

“But why? Look at me.”

“I think you’re cute still. You have pretty long hair, cool glowy eyes.”

“I don’t see why you still like me.. I was a jerk.”

“I know but my mom said it’s cause you like me and boys act like jerks cause they don’t know how to express their feelings. But it’s okay, Sunshine.”

“Why do you call me that?”

“You are my sunshine, my only sunshine. You make me happy, when skies are gray.”




“What are you trying to do?”

“Kiss you.”

“Stop! Don’t kiss me when I’m like this!”

“But you are your true self. Your perfect self.”



“You should go. It’s not safe. I don’t wanna hurt you. Just go!”



Noelle finally listened to reason. She could hear the worry and panic in my voice. Noelle didn’t leave until placing a quick smooch on my cheek before running off. I was confused, why would she kiss me in this form? Why wasn’t she afraid of me? Why did she call this form, my perfect self? I quickly climbed back up into the tree house.

I could feel my body growing with pain and rage. For the brief moment I was with Noelle, I felt no pain, no angst. But as Noelle attempted to kiss me, I could feel my body snapping into it’s reality. I fear that I would attack her, cause harm, possibly kill her. Thankfully Noelle listen to my plea before anything could happen.

This full moon wasn’t like any other, it was different, less depressing, less painful. Possibly it was because of her genuine words, accepting me in my disgusting form. I know it won’t be safe to have her around me during a full moon. I can’t always have her around me during this time. Hopefully just the thought of her would be enough to ease my pain.