Show Yourself: Chapter 15 – 20 Minutes

I was waking in a daze of confusion. My ears twitched to the very familiar sound of machines and monitors. “Oh no.” I thought to myself, I know where I was before I focused my eyes. My vision continues to become clearer as I noticed the familiar white hospital window blinds. I let out a low growl as I knew I was at my least favorite place, the hospital. But then I heard a familiar voice although it was a bit shaky.





I felt exhausted and attempted to respond but fail. My eyes grew heavy as cement blocks,  quickly shutting close, I drifted back into a deep slumber. It felt like hours, days and months had passed as I laid frozen on my hospital. I could hear the voice of mother speaking to me. I wanted to opened my eyes and speak to her but my body refused to do so. It was struggle trying to fully awake myself but being slam dunked in a comatose like sleep.




“Rai-sweetie, it’s mom. Can you hear me?”

I could hear her but my body refused to respond. She gently picks up my hand and caresses it before holding my hand against her soft skin.

“I know you’re trying to wake up. Just keep on trying, baby.”

I let out another moan and growl as I again attempted to open my heavy eyelids.


“Hey baby.”

“Wha-what happen?”

“You had surgery two days ago. Your heart was in pretty bad shape. We almost lost you, baby.”

“Lost me? I’ve been out for two days?”

“You been in and out of conscious, you probably don’t remember much. And yes baby, we almost lost you during your surgery. Your heart stopped for 20 minutes.”

“I died?”

“Yes, technically but you were able to bring yourself back. This wasn’t the first time.”

“I’ve died before?”

“Your heart stopped a few times when you were a baby. 20 minutes each time.”

“So is my heart worse than what is before? Am I gonna be restricted from doing everything like when I was a kid? I can’t go back to that life. Where is Tyrese, I swear I will kill him!”





“You don’t have to worry about him anymore. Your father said he’s been handled. You’ll need to rest for a while before you can get back to your normal. As long as you rest as long as the doctor said, your heart will repair.”

“Handled? How?”

“Don’t worry about that. You need focus on getting better so you can come home.”

“So I’m gonna get better?”

“Yes. You also had a special procedure done. It’s something new but it is believe its going to make you stronger. As you know your body doesn’t produce enough genie essence and your levels are severely low for your age. They were able to do an essence to essence transfusion. It’s something like a blood transfusion with humans. They extracted some essence from your father and gave it to you. Now your levels are normal for your age and your body will be able to self-heal. You notice you’re not hooked up? They doctors are allowing nature take it’s course but they still need to monitor you for a couple more days.”

“So will I start having all of my abilities now?”

“Possibly but not for sure. You will need to have this procedure done every 60 days if everything goes well. They’ll need to start watching your levels. It can’t get too low like it was before. But I need to go speak with your doctor. I won’t be leaving you alone. You have another visitor.”




My mom kissed my forehead before letting Bastian in. He looked like shit as he haven’t slept in two days. I could see the sorrow in his eyes as he gazed at me. He was unusually quiet and always been a bit chatty but he was in a lost of words.

“Hey man. What’s up?”

I tried to break the awkward silence in the room. It almost seem like Bastian was about cry. I’ve never seen him cry or anything like that before today. He’s usually a happy go-lucky type of guy even when the world often hands him a pile of shit. Bastian was usually the one guy who could make me laugh. 




“Are you okay? You need anything?”

“I need you to stop being weird. I had heart surgery and you look worse than me. Ha ha ha.”

“I’m being serious, Rai. If you need anything, I’m your man. Whatever you need, just tell me and I’ll get it for you.”

“I’m fine, really. Well I hurt a bit but I had some genie thing done so I’ll be okay in a few days.”




“You sure?”

“Yeah. So what’s been up?”

“Just been waking for you to wake up. I was afraid you were gonna be in a coma again. Your mom said you was in one when you were 8 for like a week or so?”

“Yeah. That fuckin’ asshole, Tyrese. He’s such a fuckin’ coward! When I get out of here, I’m going to kill him!”

“Your pops said he’s been handled.”

“What does that even mean? My mom wouldn’t tell me!”

“I dunno and I probably don’t wanna know.”

“Well I wanna know! This is the second time he put me in the hospital! I hate this place!”

“Raiden! Calm down, man!”

“Fuck that! I wanna kick his ass!”




Bastian quickly throws his arm around my neck, pulling me closer to him. I tried to pull him away from me until I could hear his voice cracking.

“Twenty minutes, Raiden! Twenty fuckin’ minutes. you were dead! I lost you for 2o minutes! The doctors gave up on you after 10 minutes and 10 more minutes your heart started to beat again! They gave up! I could had lost you if you weren’t a fuckin’ genie! Twenty fuckin’ minutes, Raiden! Twenty minutes! Who cares about Tyrese! We almost lost you! I almost lost you! I don’t know what would I do if I ever lost you! Without you, I would have no one! I thought I would never have a family again after my mom took me away from my dad. Then I met you and now I have a family. I can’t lose you again! Not even if it’s for 20 minutes!”

“Hey; I’m here now. I’m not going to go anywhere. I’m just pissed off how that asshole can get away with the shit that he does.”

“I know but we don’t have to worry about him anymore! For the last 2 days I haven’t slept or ate. I didn’t want to leave the hospital but my mom tried to force me to leave. Your mom let me come over but I wanted to stay. I didn’t want to leave until you finally woke up! I’m so happy that you’re awake and you’re worried about that asshole. I’m so fuckin’ happy that you’re alive!”

“I’m sorry; I’m so sorry. I guess I didn’t realize you were in as much pain as I am. You don’t have to worry about me, brother. I’ll never leave you.”




“You better not or I will kick your ass!”

“Yeah I know but you won’t do. You love me too much.”

“Damn right, I love you, brother.”

“I love you too but I hope you’re not trying to make out with me. Cause I do have a girlfriend ya know.”

“If I was gay, I would make out with you so hard. You have pretty man-lips. Ha ha ha!”

“Ha ha ha ha! We can never get drunk together.”

“Ha ha ha ha! Whatever man!”

“But seriously, I’m kinda feeling tired. I should probably rest for a bit.”

“Alright. I guess I could go bug my mom for a while. I’m going nowhere, man. Whatever need, I gotcha.”

“Yeah. I know but I need rest.”




I’m not sure how long I slept before I could hear someone entering my room. I figure it was probably my mom or Bastian but they said nothing. Maybe it was one of the nurses checking up on me but I hear them make any other movement in the room.


I opened my eyes to see Annaliese staring down at me. I smiled at her and she smiled back.

“I heard you were awake, kinda. I tried to get here as fast as I could but my scooter was out of gas.”

“I’m glad to see that sexy face of yours.”




I attempted to lift myself but feeling a sharp pain run across my chest. I growled in pain which gave Annaliese a mild panic attack.

“Ow! Shit!”

“Oh no! Raiden, are you okay?!”

“This shit hurts. So much for self-healing.”





“Maybe you should lied down. Do I need to get a nurse for you?”

“Nah. I’m good.”

“You don’t look like it! Lemme you some help, Raiden.”

“No, no. All I need now is your body against mine.”


“I died for 20 minutes and all I wanna do is hold you.”




A tear rolled down her cheek, I wiped the single tear telling her she wasn’t allowed to cry. I’m here now and I’m going anywhere, there was no need for any tears. I held her against me, we didn’t speak, we just gazed into each other eyes. I pressed my head against her chest, listening to her heartbeat. It began to race a bit as I caressed her lower back.

“I love the sound of you being alive.”

“I would love to hear your sound.”

“I would let ya but it kinda hurts in that area.”

“Maybe a little kiss will make it feel better?”

“I dunno. My nurse tried but I’m still feeling a little pain.”

“That’s cause your nurse doesn’t know what’s she doing.”




I pulled her into an embrace. Her kiss was gentle and soft, she didn’t want to hurt me but her kiss doesn’t allow me to feel any pain. I held her closer and kissed her passionately, probably more than I usual have. I believe coming back from the dead did make me a better lover cause this was the best kiss she ever received. 





“Are you feeling better?”

“Wanna be my nurse? I can fire the other one. You got better healing medicine.”

“Ha ha ha! Sure and I guess you want me to wear one of those sexy nurse outfits.”

“It wouldn’t hurt.”

“You are so bad, Raiden. Ha ha ha!”

“Well you can’t complain. You picked me.”

“Ha ha ha! I guess that’s true.”

The opened up and Bastian walked in. As promised, he didn’t leave and he probably should left long enough to take a shower. If he wasn’t going to eat or sleep, he could at least wash his ass.

“Am I interrupting anything? I don’t mind watching. I’m kinda into that. Ha ha ha.” 





I started to grow a bit antsy as I already mention my distaste to hospital stays. If they gave me this special genie essence transfusion, they why must I continue to stay here. It’s not like I hooked to any machines to monitor me. I rose from the bed and began to pace around the room. Naturally this made Annaliese and Bastian nervous.

“You should get back into bed, Rai. You just had surgery, you gotta rest.”

“Yeah man, I thought you were tired.”

“I can’t stand it in here. I gotta get out of here.”




“No way Mister. You’re not going anywhere. Are you insane?”

“I just need some fresh air.”

“We can get you a wheelchair, man. I know there’s one near the door.”

“No chair. I can walk.”

“You’re in no shape to be walking around, let again standing up. Stop being difficult.”

“You don’t understand! I gotta get out of here.”

“Hey Rai, what is your deal? I never seen you like this. You been in hospitals before, I don’t get why you’re all freaked out. You know how things go here.”




“That’s exactly why I don’t want to be here cause I’m always at the hospital. I’ve spent most of my infancy in a hospital and even celebrated my second birthday in one. All through my childhood I had numerous doctor visits and some of them ended up with me having to stay at the hospital. I really can’t stand this place and can’t spend another moment here. I want to go home.”

“Well your mom isn’t gonna let you so you’re stuck here, man.”

“Damn it.”




Annaliese made me sit down and I started to feel a little light-headed. They were right and I needed to rest for a bit but I can never get comfortable at the hospital.

“Suck it up Rai, no one is ever relaxed at the hospital. Once you chill out, heal then you go home. You’re not gonna get out of here any faster by being a jackass. And it could be worse, my mom coulda been your nurse.”

“I guess that’s true. Your mom is unpleasant. No offense, Bast.”

“None taken, I know how she is. She knows I’m here so don’t be surprised if she tries to check on you.”

“So where’s Claudio?”

“He wanted to come but his parents are in the country. It’s not like his ‘rents are here often. Vexille wanted to come too but she knows my mom works her and my mom doesn’t like her. You don’t need to see of that drama. They both send you their love.”

“Ah gotcha. At least you and Anna came to see me. That means a lot.”





“Well I am your girlfriend, it’s my duty to come up here.” 

“Yeah and I’m basically your brother. Of course I’m gonna be here.”

“Speaking of brothers, where are my others?”

“There’s a limit of visitors you can have at a time and you got a lot of brothers and sisters, sweetie.”

“True. Has anyone talked to my dad? I thought it was strange to see my mom but not my dad.”

“Well your dad was kinda missing for 2 days with your papa; but your mom wasn’t gonna let him come see you until he got some rest. Your dad and papa looked like they got hit by a truck.”

“They went missing for 2 days? Where the fuck did they go?”

“No clue and they won’t talk about it.”

“I wanna know what they mean by Tyrese being “handled”.

“Maybe they turned him?”

“Doubt it, Anna. The way my mom responded to my question makes me think my dad did something illegal.”

“Rather your dad and papa did or not, do you really wanna know, bro?”





“People get a little crazy just before a full moon. Maybe it’s a good thing that your dad and papa won’t explained what “handled” really means.”

“Did you say full moon?”

“Yeah, why?”

“When is the next full moon?”


“You both should go.”


“I need for you both to leave as soon as possible. Just go!”




“Ya know I always notice how you act really weird when it’s about to be a full moon. What’s your deal with full moons anyway? Plus I was hoping to check out your nurse. Is she hot? I’m not ready to go just yet.”




“I just want to be alone. Can you guys please leave?”

“Did we say anything that offended you? Please Rai. Tell us what’s wrong?”

“Nothing is wrong, I just need you both to leave now.”




“Well if you want us to go, I guess we should.”

“You can go Bastian but I’m not going anywhere.”

“I want you to leave too, Anna.”

“Rai does need his rest. Ya know how cranky he gets when he’s tired, ha ha ha!”

“Exactly. Now go.”

“I’ll be back tomorrow after school, bro. I promised.”




Although Bastian left, Annaliese refused to leave as that made me very agitated. Why wouldn’t she just leave like Bastian. I can’t risk her seeing me turn, not even Bastian knows about that. I was always careful  and  watched the lunar phases to avoid making any plans with friends.  If I turn in front her, I know I will lose her and the whole school would know about my secret.

“You can’t get rid of me so easily like Bastian. I’m not going anywhere until you tell me what’s your deal is?”

“You gotta be kidding me.”

“Not kidding at all. So you gonna tell me or what?”

“Why won’t you just go!”

“I just told you that I won’t until you tell me what’s wrong.”







“I seriously need you to go right the fuck now!”

“Hey! Not with that attitude!”




“Get the fuck out! I don’t want you here! And can’t you fuckin’ understand that? There’s nothing wrong with until you have to be so fuckin’ annoying with you not leaving! Why couldn’t you just go like I asked?! I seriously thought you wouldn’t be this damn stupid!”

“What the fuck?! I am sorry that I care about you and want to know if you’re okay! Obviously there is something bothering you! I want to help you!”

“If you want to help me so bad then get the fuck out of here! Just fuckin’ go and not make this a big deal! It’s so damn simple! I need my rest! Just fuckin’ go!”

“Fine I’ll go and I won’t bothering ever coming back to see you! You don’t have to ever worry about me annoying you ever again!”

“Fine then! Go!”





As soon as Annaliese turned her back towards to storm off, I dropped to the ground. She quickly races over towards me. Pain shot throughout my body, pain which I never felt before. I wasn’t sure what was happening me. It didn’t feel like I was about to turn. I called out for Annaliese with a weak and shaky voice. Beads of sweat formed on my forehead and the pain continued to blanket all over my body.




“Oh my gosh! Are you okay?”

“I don’t feel so good, I’m in pain.”

“Oh no! I’ll go get you some help!”

“No! Just help me towards the bed.”

“No, Raiden! You need help now!”

“Please don’t leave me on the floor.”




Annaliese gently help life me from the floor and helped me towards my bed. The pain had subsided and I just felt exhausted and sore.

“Get I get you into bed, I’m gonna find you a nurse. Okay?”

“Look Annaliese.”

“It’s okay.”

“No. It’s not okay. I shouldn’t yell at you like that. I got a temper but it’s no excuse for me to be a dick. I’m sorry. I know you’re just looking out for me. I’m really sorry.”

“It’s okay, Raiden. I should just go like you asked. It was selfish of me trying to stick around when you wanted to be alone.”

“I don’t wanna break up.”

“We’re almost to the bed. We can talk about that later.”





“You know you should be in bed. You were always a difficult child. You’re a lot like your uncle Angelo.”


“Yes, I’ve come to check on you.”

“He needs a nurse, Sir.”

“No, the boy needs to rest and calm down. I can take it from here. You should probably go, dear.”

“Oh okay. We’ll talk later, Raiden.”



“Again, I’m sorry.”

“I know.” 




My grandpa heard everything between us.  I felt like shit because of the way I yelled at her. I regret everything that I said to her. I won’t be surprised if she wants to break up after I get better. I really felt like I screwed up here.

“She’s a nice girl. Was the girlfriend I heard about.”

“Yeah. Was. She’s probably gonna break up with me.”

“I heard everything. That’s no way to speak to a lady or anyone else in general. You gotta work on how you speak to others. Resorting to a yelling match doesn’t resolve anything.”

“I was so mad cause she wouldn’t leave. All you had to do was leave but she kept asking what was wrong and wasn’t gonna leave until I did.”

“Did you?”

“Are you crazy, Papa? I’m not gonna tell her that! She would for real dump me then. Nobody can know what happens to me during a full moon.”




“Nothing was going to happen to you during this full moon, anyway.”


“Your body suffered a serious trauma. You’re too weak to be forced into a turn. Besides I was told about the essence transfusion, you got some extra genie DNA to protect you from a forced turn.”

“So as long as I have extra genie essence, I won’t turn?”

“Yes but this is a temporary fix. According to your doctor, your lycan hormones and essence levels are imbalanced. You’re not neither trained to be a genie or a lycan and that needs to be fixed. You can’t try to be one and not the other. I know how much you hate your lycan bloodline but you will have to eventually accept it.”

“So I gotta train, huh?”

“Yes, son. You can join Angelo during his training sessions after school and on the weekends. We will train you how to control your lycan powers. You won’t always be stuck in mid-turn if you are properly trained.”

“I do some lycan training and I’ll stop turning into a monster?”




“Yes and one part of the training is to accept yourself. You whole self, genie and lycan. You must love and accept yourself. It’s the only way to control both of your powers and abilities. Are you ready to do this?”

“I guess so.”

“You guess? I’m not interesting in training you if you’re not ready. It’s more than physical. There’s mind and spirit involved too. Now again, are you ready?”


“Great. We will have to wait until your body is done healing of course. I’ve talked to your parents about this and they both feel it’s time you train to be a genie and lycan. Your dad will be training you and I will be also training you.”

“Okay. So how long is the training gonna take? A month or two?”

“Son, it could take years. I’ve trained for years and still training.”




“Years?! It’s gonna take years before I stop turning into a monster?! I can’t wait that long! I thought after a few months I’ll be like everyone else!”

“Ha ha ha. You kids want everything quick and easy. Your dad still trains himself. It takes time before becoming your full potential. And your father learned there’s more genies can do and it’s which why your father is still training. It’s going to take a lot of time and effort. Angelo is learning that.”

“Sounds like it’s gonna be hard.”

“It might at first but over time it won’t be so much. You’ll get a hang of things, son.”


“Right now, we need to get you to your 100%. Please rest and keep calm. The quicker you heal, the quicker you can go home. As you know the food is the worse.”

“Right! Ha ha ha!”

“But don’t worry, son. I brought you some dinner. Simona made your favorite, spaghetti.”

“Awesome! I am kinda hungry.”




After I ate, my Grandpa Muraco headed home so I could rest. Sleep didn’t come easy as I was worried about my relationship with Annaliese. Bastian left my phone and I heard my text alert go off. I reached over to grab my phone, hoping it was Annaliese. But it wasn’t, it was Noelle. I almost forgot about her cause she’s been pretty distant since I first met Annaliese.

She was told of what happen to me and was worried cause she haven’t heard any updates lately. I texted Noelle telling her that I was fine and will be going home in a few days. She was happy to heard from me and I was happy to hear from her. She apologize for being distant and explained that she was crazy busy with a school project. Something tells me that it’s more than that but I decided to leave it alone. I should try avoid getting into another fight this evening. Right now, I need rest. I gotta get out of this place.

2 thoughts on “Show Yourself: Chapter 15 – 20 Minutes

  1. Man I got all teary eyed reading this one. I think Bastian would be really freaking out if one of his best friends were dying. He is a good guy and gets along with a lot of people but struggles with long term friendships. OMG that poor kid would be so fucked if Petra was his nurse lol. He’d just be annoyed the whole time and not able to heal. She’d probably make his ass stay in bed though. Anna and Bash will find out about his issues eventually though, hopefully his training will help him accept that.

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