Linza came over soon after I called. I greeted her with hug, she could tell that I was upset. I told her about my fight with Lakey and she thought it was ridiculous.
“We should do something to cheer you up.”
“I know what we could do. I can show you my personal hang out.”
“Oh the room where Lakey said you kept all the bad stuff in?”
“Ha ha ha. Yeah the room with all the bad stuff.”
“Oh cool, we can go chill in there.”
“Would you like a martini?”
“Sure, I remember you making some good ones at the bar. Ladies night hasn’t been the same for that last 2 weeks.”
“I’m taking a little break but I’ll be back. I promise.”
“I hope so cause John can’t make those fancy drinks like you can, city boy.”
“Ha ha ha. At least someone likes what I do.”
I was showing all of the things that Lakey hated to Linza. I wanted to show her my DJing skills and I think she was impressed. She danced a little, told me I was good. It made me feel good about myself. For once someone is supporting my talents.
“So do you know where she went?”
“No idea. She told me to not to worry. She probably went to a friend’s.”
“It’s pretty ridiculous that she’s getting mad over something so pointless. This room is harmless. Why does she hate the city so much? Didn’t live in Star City too?”
“Yeah, Lakey was abandoned by her birth mother when she was an infant. She was a big time party girl and didn’t have time for motherhood. Her mother was going to medical school but the city changed her. Lakey feels that staying in the city will turn her into something awful like her birth mother. She died at the age of 27 of a drug overdose.”
“That sounds awful but the city doesn’t turn everyone into druggies. It’s the choices that you make. Why doesn’t she realize that?”
“I dunno… I probably should had fought harder on relocating here. I just give her whatever she wants. I just wanted her to be happy.”
“And what about your happiness? It doesn’t sound like she cares about yours.”
“Maybe when she has time to think, she’ll realize she’s been selfish.”
“You deserve to be happy. It’s only fair.”
“I know but I think things will be better..”
“And what if it’s not? I notice you haven’t been happy. I don’t think you ever been happy since I’ve met you.”
“It’s cause I haven’t… I don’t belong here.. This doesn’t feel like home but Lakey loves this place.”
“Any woman would be lucky to have you. You’re a great guy with a kind soul. But if she refuses to make you happy, then she doesn’t deserve you.”
“I like how you’re supportive and do care about my happiness.”
“I care about you, Bruce.”
I know this is so wrong…..
But it feels so right…
“We shouldn’t have done that…”
“I know.. It was crazy but I couldn’t stop myself, Bruce. You’re just so-“
“Irresistible. I know.. Honestly I couldn’t myself either. There’s something about you.”
“Me? There’s nothing special about me.”
“That’s where you’re wrong. You’re a wonderful woman with a heart of gold but we can’t do this.. It’s not fair to Lakey.. I still love her.”
“But you’re unhappy… You can’t have a healthy relationship if you’re unhappy.”
“True… But..we can’t do this.. I’m sorry.”
Linza went home afterwards. I watched to make sure she got home okay. About a week ago, she moved into the house across from us. Things will be kinda awkward now, especially since she lives across the street.
I thought about what Linza said and she’s right but I can’t just drop everything with Lakey cause Linza is more supportive. We’re about to bring a child into this world.. I don’t want my child to be raised into a broken family.
Christmas was a week away and it was time to make plans. I’ve been speaking with Leda and she seems pretty excited about spending Christmas here.
Lakey and I made up since our fight. She did realize she was being silly and a bit selfish but she still isn’t on board with my business plan. I hope in due time, she’ll come around.
“Christmas is around the corner and I’ve been meaning to tell you about my sister Leda and her family. They’ll coming to spend it with us.”
“That’s not gonna work out.”
“What do you mean?”
“We’re gonna see my family.”
“I don’t remember agreeing to that.”
“I haven’t spent Christmas with them in while and I think we should go.”
“Well I do wanna get to know Leda and her family.”
“Yeah, you can do that next year. We are going to see my family.”
“I’m not being selfish! It’s only fair if we see my family.”
“And what about mine?”
“You can call them or whatever but I already told my mother that we were coming.”
“When were you going to tell me about our plans?”
“Soon.. You’re always busy with school. You can tell your new sister, maybe next year.”
“I don’t wanna argue with you. We been doing well lately but I don’t wanna spend the holidays with your family. I wanna stay home with you.”
“I’m sorry that you don’t wanna go but I am. With or without you.”
Lakey headed to bed. She was bitter that I didn’t want to go see her family. I was annoyed that she was being selfish and not realizing it. My mood was lighten up when I received a message from Linza. I wonder if she would like with spend Christmas with me and Leda’s family.